first day of college quote :)

"If the elevator to success stops, take the stairs."

If I wasn't ready, then it's too late now. I'm here and there's no turning back. Moving in went well although there are still a few things that I need. Sleep being one of them which is why I have to keep this pretty short. I miss my mom and my home tons and tons but I have a lovely pink cloth to wipe away the tears that come very frequently, *stops typing...wipes...* I think once I go to sleep and wake up and my mind is occupied, then I'll be find. When your mind is quiet, that's when it all goes spiraling into the unknown. which can be okay sometimes because you start having very intelligent thoughts or you can have really stupid thoughts. At least this washcloth is getting some use. I got 10 for a dollar and they're pink. good deal. good color.

I'm about to start a new book called "Three Cups of Tea." It was on my summer book list for AP Language and Composition and I've been wanting to read it since then so, hopefully I can start it tonight before I go off to dream land.

When I was little, my mother used to tell me, that if I couldn't sleep, I should close my eyes and start a dream. I do it all the time still, mostly when I'm bored and have nothing else to do.Tonight I'll make sure I do it and see what I'll dream of. I'm thinking maybe Ice cream with Rupert Grint. That sounds like a wonderful start!

this is a quote that I put on the wall by my bed.

"a DREAM is a wish that the heart makes"

feeling pretty

What is it about shopping with your best friends that just makes you feel so happy. This is one of the dresses I got today. Even though trying on clothes can be a pain in the neck, I like it because I get to see what things compliment me and what fits my body bests. I'm more comfortable in things that look nice on me. When I'm more comfortable, I feel better about myself. Which is good. It helps me to love myself more. When I'm in clothes and accessories that I really like, I feel more confident and I smile a bit more. So my excuse to go shopping is to boost my self-esteem. I always felt that shopping brought down my self-esteem but it's really a chance to learn more about me and my body. This must make me seem crazy, shopping to learn and boost my self-esteem but I guess I'm just weird like that. I love it!

Also, I know that first picture is super edited but I was really hot and there was sweat everywhere so I edited to make me look less....oily!

Have a super duper day! :)

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I don't know when it happened but I'm less than a week away from going off to college. I feel so stupid though. I keep thinking of all the "what could've beens" and "what if I had done this instead of thats" from my senior year. I really shouldn't dwell on them becuase the year is over with. I can't do anything to change it now but there are some things that I wish I could have had you know? I think though that the excitement of starting a new chapter will keep my mind off of some of those things because dwelling on it can't be healthy. I've learned a lesson from it though. Be careful and be brave. It's more fun that was isn't it. You can have fun and still do great and that's the plan for this new chapter. I'll be living it up! =D

I graduated!!! c/o 2010!

I did it! Kudos to the class of 2010! It feels good to have finally made it through those 4 years of that high school chapter. It was quite the experience.

I've said this before and I'll say it again. I'm so happy all of my fellow class of 2010 graduates! We did it and now we're in the real world. Well we're kind of taking our first steps into the real world but we made it through about 13 years of school, I think we do more. We're strong enough. This is evidence :)

I know that I'm going to miss everyone but I know that I've learned something from all of the people that I've met over the past four years. Everything is a lessoned learned. I've had positive moments in high school and I've learned from them and I've had negative moments and I've learned from them too.

Anywhooo....it was a great experience. I smiled a LOT!...and laughed a lot. I was in the front row and after we went across the stage we had to wait for what felt like a million more rows to walk across the stage so I heard a lot of jokes and we had a bunch of random conversations. It was fun.

Most importantly, I think I'm ready for the next step. There is no turning back now. I have a flippin high school dimploma. I'm a happy zebra. I wish all my fellow classmates the best of luck. I know you'll all do amazingly well. you're freaking fantastic...obviously...we made it!!

june 4th's reasons to smile

• I wore my Jonas Brothers crown from burger king! I wanted to be a queen today since, after all, it was my last day of high school.
• lots of hugs today. I love hugs and smiles.
• we seniors snaked the halls with the awesome band. it was bittersweet. I've been waiting to do this since my freshman year but it's like this is the last time I'll be walking through these halls. we were passing all these teachers and some were crying and we were hugging our teachers. it was so *sighs* special.
• We had a senior breakfast. there was bacon. it was yummy.
• I was only at school for 2 hours so I went home and took and awesome nap
• after my nap, I watched a bit of arthur and then phineas and ferb. it's hard to believe that I'm an 18 year old going to college in about 16 days isn't it?
• I baked cookies for my brother and sister. they were fantastic.
• I got my jewelry from girlprops.com. everything is just adorable and each item was under $3.
• the umm..."I can't wait to get out of this school" followed by the "I'm going to miss high school" wall posts on facebook were really amusing!

wednesday and thursday's reasons to smile :)

This week is my last week of high school. Amongst the finals and study halls, we had our little dress up days. Tuesday was twister dress up day and you had to wear a color from the board. Wednesday was plaid day...you were supposed to wear plaid. Thursday was life's a beach day and you had to dress up like you were going to the beach, I wore a cool hat and adorable sunglasses. It was fun. People were throwing around beach balls. I didn't get to take pictures because I was too afraid of being hit with a beach ball, they were being thrown pretty violently...

List of reasons to smile from Tuesday to today...sorry, I didn't mean to lie in the title :)

• tuesday we played twister during lunch and in my psychology class. http://tweetphoto.com/25084949 want to see what it's like when boys who are very comfortable with their sexuality get together and play twister? click that link. it was so funny!
• on wednesday, we played musical chair in the cafeteria, I got pretty far too until these two boys like attacked me for a chair. it was a lot of fun. In all the musical chairs chaos, they also played twister and duck duck goose. pretty freaking awesome.
• thursday I finished all of my finals!
• we did chalk drawings. it just rained not too long ago so I bet it's gone but it was a lot of fun.
• pretty much the entire class got together during our yearbook signing party and watched the senior dvd, which I'm in and it's kind of awkward but the rest of it was good. I like watching all those memories.
• I danced a bit on each of the days. I always have fun dancing, makes me happy.
• Because I really didn't have any homework, I had a few times this week to just relax and think about lots of things and emotions. I really needed it. It was really healthy.
• everybody is just so happy, it makes me smile.
• my health science teacher, who I have had for the past 4 years, got our first period class a cake to eat when we were done taking out final. I thought it was so sweet of her. The cake was yummy too! I'm going to miss her.
• I watched arthur today and yesterday. Arthur always makes me happy.
  
  
  

It's been a fun week so far. doors are begining to close and new doors are opening. It's so exciting but sad. I think I'm ready.

brightened my day

Hey you gorgeous gorgeous man, that I can't even meet in my dreams, you brighten my day you know? Like today for example, I had a few major sucky moments and after I had calmed down a bit, I noticed Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire was on and then I saw your beautiful smile and forgot, for a moment, what I was so upset about earlier. You're just so awesome and funny and cool and a freaking ray of talent. I'm going to need a poster of you to decorate my dorm room. I think those beautiful eyes and that amazing smile will keep me from giving up among the other inspirational things that I plan on having in my dorm room. I love all his movies though and I love seeing his interviews, it's like how could you not love him! He makes my heart happy and today he turned a sad face into a happy one which he can always do. I don't know you Mr. Rupert Grint but thank you for being the light that makes my darkness disappear....

NB: I am not a stalker.

woooooooo...today.

Today was a pretty good day if I do say so myself. It started off with a few sad moments but today the good outweighed the bad.

"He who has health, has hope. And he who has hope, has everything."

today's reasons to smile...

• I made awesome brownies this morning. They were really good! I put chocolate sauce and chocolate chips in them..they were really chocolatey
• I conducted my last HOSA meeting, as a parting gift, my lovely members, officers, and advisor gave me lovely parting gifts, including a traveling mug, a couple jonas posters, a freaking amazing barbie with her own couch, and a lovely key chain and lots of candy! It was a great meeting/party type thing. I'm going to miss it.
• tomorrow is my last normal day of high school. next week is just finals and a bunch of senior luxuries like a special breakfast and snaking the halls with the band.
• got to leave school early because I wasn't feeling great, that's not a smile moment but the nap I took when I finally got home was amazing♥
• I found out that I have a roommate for the fall and spring! I'm so excited to meet her. Hopefully we were matched well.

Prom night...♥

Tonight was prom night. I had a good time with my friends. I love when people make me smile it happens often but I really love it when people make my heart happy. For a few hours, I could forget about not being up to other people's standards and not fitting the perfect mold and just dance like no one was watching. Sometimes I feel really bad for not feeling beautiful because some people I'm around just bring that out of me but tonight, I felt beautiful and that was very important for me because it was my night. I didn't want any negative feelings to ruin it. I wanted to have fun and I achieved that! I can't post pictures just yet because I'm doing everything i can to keep myself awake for the next 10 minutes and getting pictures off of my camera is a dificult process that takes more than 10 minutes so I'll wait. I do have a picture of some shoes I got earlier today. I took the picture with my phone. They're zebra print and adorable! They're a part of may 22nd's reasons to smile also.

• I went shopping today!
• I finally got a bra that actually fits. I didn't even know my bra was the wrong size but I went to unique lingerie and the owner is an expert on bras and how they work. She actually took classes and everything. They also specialize in bras for women with breast cancer. It's a wonderful store. You should check out the website.
• I got those Zebra shoes up there, a pair of silver flip flops and I got my hair done.
• I spent a lot of time with friends, we went to carabbas and had amazing food!
• I danced the night away, prom = sore legs in the morning
• I had a lot of fun without drinking alcohol or doing drugs or smoking anything.
• Everyone looked so beautiful! I love seeing people happy and there were a lot of happy people there tonight.

Well, I'll have to be going to sleep soon. I've got a headache and I'm really tired. I think I'll sleep well tonight!

May 20th's reasons to smile..college ready...? pt3

Today was our Senior awards night. It was very exciting to see my classmates honored and acknowledged for all their hard work. I had lots of reasons to smile today until I saw the Grey's Anatomy finale but I'm not going to talk about it. My mom, my zebra connie sparks and I all watched it on the edge of our seats! Anywhoo...these are today's awesome smile moments.

• At the awards, I received me National Honor Society hood for graduation, my Health Occupations capstone certificate, my honor cord, a scholarship, and my certificate for honors. I think I did pretty okay :)
• A lot of my wonderful classmates and friends were very happy because they've worked very hard throughout their high school year and now everyone knows it by all the honors they received tonight. They were very happy and seeing them so truly happy, made me smile, from like ear to ear. I'm proud of them. Yay for the class of 2010!
• I didn't go to school today so I got to watch a few of my favorite shows, they're the shows that make me laugh and relax me when I'm stressed out like Arthur, The Golden Girls, and What I Like About You. I had fun all by myself being lazy in bed watching tv. I think I really needed a personal day.
• I had calamari for breakfast because I'm cool like that, then I had ramen noodles for dinner.
• caramel frappe. no explanation needed.

college ready? pt. 2

So this week is a pretty exciting week for us seniors at my school.

We have senior awards on thursday, a senior meeting on friday, and prom on saturday. I'm pretty ready for prom, I just have to take care of getting my nails and hair done and I still need a strapless bra. I have until the 22nd so I should be good.



I don't know what I'm wearing to the senior awards. I want to wear something springy but I don't really have anything springy so I'll have to work on that. I'll probably figure it out tonight so that I can have it all ready by thursday.



I also have to do a research paper by next monday. I'm aiming to be finished by tomorrow night so wish me luck! it shouldn't be that hard though, I know where to find all the information and how to word it. My only problem will be procrastination. Procrastination, I know you and I know how to beat you. I'm a little lazy right about now and really tired but I'm beating you sucka!! just watch me

this plan thing

So, I've been trying some of the things that are in my college bag and they're a little small. So, I'm going to have to start eating healthy and get back to daily exercises before I go on my mega-college shopping adventure that will begin in aprroximately 25 days. I also have to get in shape because the campus is huge and it will be summer...in FLORIDA. It increases my excitement though. I know there's more than just fashion though. I'll be needing a lot of other things but I'm still in the process of picking a theme that will keep me comfortable while being away from home. It's all so close, I'm just trying to do what ever I can to get ready....college ready *dun dun dun*

hopefully, I'll make it all work.