make a happy face?

Things I love about this time of year....

• Family...they're always important but I love the traditions that take place during this time. They make me so happy.
  
• smiles
• the weather! I love the cold and if I'm in the right place, I love the snow!
  
• The food :)
• The toy commercials and the giant toy book from Toys 'R' Us. I get so excited even though I can't play with them unless my beautiful siblings get them.
• The Kleenex commercials! so cute!
• The lights and the decorations
• the ornaments
• the use of imagination
• cookies for Santa!
• the Christmas specials and movies...Love Actually
• Harry Potter
• mittens and hats and winter coats..if need apply and hopefully, need applies.
  
• finals.....wait ummm should that be there?
• bonfires and smores
• hot chocolate
• candy canes
• Thinking about being at disney world with all the magic

It's such a wonderful time! I just saw a Kleenex commercials and was noticing the crazy amount of toy commercials so I decided to do a happy little rant about it.

Keep your hearts happy out there!

you with the pretty face, smile :)

pictures are from weheartit.com. I love looking through them. They make me smile. A chain reaction?

hmmmm....

Have you ever had those negative people in your life that you just want to tell them, "be gone. you don't get me. you make fun of everything that I do. you want me to be just like you but I'm not and since you can except that then get out of my life! I'm my own person and I like what I like and just because they aren't identical doesn't mean that I'm stupid, or weird, or anything like that. except that or let me be. stop making fun of me for being true to myself!"? It's like when I'm around those people, I become a more negative spirit myself but it's hard to stay away because sometimes you really care about these people and don't want to just give up on them.

I find it really hard since everyday I'm fighting to love myself more and to be more positive for me so I don't have to sit in the shower and cry or have all of those suicidal thoughts becasue I know that my life is beautiful and precious and I deserve to be happy. Happiness is one size fits all and I refuse to let anyone influence me against me or make me think that I can't be happy or that it's wrong being true to myself and living my life for me.

I'll just say that it's a little bump in the road for today and even though it was a pretty big bump, the smiles still outweighed the frowns and a happy heart of mine is in the winning corner. My smiles won today especially with the lovely lyrics of Beautiful Flower by India Arie stuck in my head.

There is nothing in the world that you cannot do
When you believe in you,
who are beautiful
Yeah, you, who are brilliant
Yeah, you, who are
powerful
Yeah, you, who are resilient

be impeccable with your word

"What you dream, what you feel, and what you really are will be manifested through your words. Your word is a force, it is the power you have to communicate, to think, and thereby to create the events in your life."

wooo!!! this is my 200th blog post! The picture doesn't match the quote and the quote doesn't match the rest of the post. But I loved them all so they're all here.

Earlier, for some odd reason, I was thinking about my laughing problem. I tend to laugh at everything. I remember a few times when I would laugh nonstop for 2 minutes and fall off my mom's bed. My head hurt so much after all the laughing that I was afraid to go to sleep. I love it though. It's awkard at times but I can deal with it just because I'm cool like that. I also love hearing laughs especially when they make me laugh too. I just love it. When I laugh, it's like i can escape from all my worries even if it is just for 2 seconds or 2 whole minutes :)

May 14's reasons to smile

It is a bit early, the day isn't over yet but I'm not going to be at home tonight. I'm going to relay for life. It's really fun, It raises money for the american cancer society and it's an all night thing. I'm going at about 6 and it's over at 10 in the morning. So I'm listing my reasons to smile now.

• I didn't go to school today. School is pretty much just sitting there, talking, watching movies waiting for graduation, and reading books. I had to visit my doctor today so I just didn't go to school.
• My mom got me a caramel frappe from mcdonalds. I love coffee! It almost taste like the one from starbucks so I was very pleased. It was also very refreshing since it's so hot out.
• I'm about to do tons of baking for the bake sale at relay for life. Ilove baking, which I've probably said a million times. Today, I'm making peanut butter cookies and banana nut muffins. I hope they taste good!
• relay for life :)
• closer and closer to graduation! there's only 14 school days left too.
• I've got hope. Sometimes I feel really lost and confused and sick and tired but at the end of the day I have hope.

I try to remember all the good things so that I can keep them in mind when things go bad. It works 80.95% of the time.

:) poem

Smiling is infectious,
You catch it like the flu,
When someone smiled at me today,
I started smiling too.

I passed around the corner,
And someone saw my grin,
When he smiled I realized,
I'd passed it on to him.

I thought about that smile,
Then realized its worth,
A single smile, just like mine,
Could travel round the earth.

So, if you feel a smile begin,
Don't leave it undetected.
Let's start an epidemic quick,
And get the world infected.

I found it online some where. a smile is a chain reaction. try it :)

my smile

"you're not fully dressed until you wear a smile."

That up there is my smile. It's a part of me that I love the most. Above the boobs and in between last year's prom weave, lies my smile. I think it's beautiful. I love it because it's mine. It reminds me of all the beautiful and strong women that have raised me, like my grandma, my mommy, and my auntie jackie. My grandmother is no longer here but I think she still lives through my smile, and the rest of my face because I kind of look like her. My smile represents my strength and my ability to become whatever I want to be because that's what those beautiful women taught me. I can only use the strength of my smile if I'm brave enough to share it with the world so there. that's my smile.

and I love...

10 of my favorite things in picture form. It was really fun to do. Iza =] posted one and it was really interesting so I wanted to try it out for myself. These are a few of my favorite things....

Favorite Hobby: Jewelry making. It relaxes me.

Favorite TV Show: Golden Girls =]

Favorite Restaurant Food: Friday's cajun chicken and shrimp with pasta. yum!

Favorite thing to shop for: accessories :)

Favorite Animal: Zebras!!

Favorite Song: hard to pick but Ooh Child by The Five Stairsteps. I have tons of favorites of course

Favorite Word: PEACE

Favorite Youtube Video: True Colors

Favorite Movie: Juno or Pretty Woman or August Rush or...I have too many favorites!

Favorite Childhood Memory: spending time with family

that's me and my mommy. I don't remember that of course but it's one of my favorite pictures!

let's fight the feeling.

I'm at school. Freedom from this is so close I can taste it. I'm usually good with fighting that "this isn't going to be the greatest of days" feeling. Today I think I'm going to have to fight extra hard especially since this week is filled with AP testing and I won't actually be doing much learning or school work for the matter when I'm actually at school. If I'm at school I need to be doing some kind of work to keep my mind from going crazy. If I'm going to go crazy...(crazier), then shouldn't I just be at home in bed then? I guess it's good for the quiet time so I can study for more exams but I think that senioritis is kicking in. I don't want to do much of anything but go get myself together graduation and college....that means shopping!


I know that I have the power to make this day what I want it to be. I can just give up and say "this is going to be a bad day" or I can smile, ignore the giant yellow ink stain on my scrub pants and make the best of it. That's my plan, to make the best of it.


To look at the winnie the pooh sticker on my phone becuase it always makes me smile. Or I can look at the bracelets I've made. They're really colorful and a great little source of positive energy that's why I make them so often. I really should take a picture of them one day.


It feels like 100 degrees outside but I'll make the best of it. I know that when this day is over, a new one begins, a new ray of hope and one day closer to my 18th birthday which is 94 days from today! =]

may 2nd...reasons to smile!

• I went to an AP government study session today. Got to learn and laugh a lot. I love getting together for a good reason and eating great cookies. My teacher's mom made amazing cookies!

I pretty much spent my entire day there so that's my list. =]

I have to take two AP exams this week. One on Monday and another one on Thursday and then one next Wednesday. I'm really ready to get them over with.

Closer and closer to graduation and then the college! woot woot! =]

I hope with this upcoming week, you remember that you're beautiful. I hope you remember that you're special and you're loved. YOU'RE AMAZING! I don't think I can ever stress that enough. I just want everyone to realize how special and precious they are.

today's reasons to smile

It's 3 am so technically these are yesterday's reasons to smile but I haven't gone to bed yet and I want to record what made me smile today. I was looking over some old posts and I looked at the one that challenged everyone to track what makes them smile and make a list every night before bed. Here it is! http://thoughtsunderpressure.blogspot.com/2009/08/reasons-to-smile.html

my reasons to smile...May 1st.

• I had enough time today to listen to all my favorite songs. I really like old songs from the 50's and 60's they make my heart happy. I can't really explain it but it's sort of like they make me think of all the awesome clothes they used to wear back then. I think that music will always be an escape for people and when I listen to those songs, I feel like I can travel to those times and just dance into a world of happiness.


• I saw honor society while I was watching Alvin and the Chimpmunks the sqeaukquel. I knew they were going to be in the movie but I didn't think they would be the first faces I saw. I love those gents. They can always make me smile! All I could remember though is how I was like 2 minutes away from meeting them and they walked like 3 feet infront of me last summer. It was amazing!


• I got to talk to my lovely twitter friends


• Rupert Grint.....I watched a few...like 20...videos of him doing interviews and things like that. I also read some interviews with him and he makes me over the moon happy. I used to dream about him. It was one summer and I dreamt about him every night because he's just so wonderful and beautiful and talented and I can talk about him for hours so I'll just stop now. =] ♥

This is Andrew from Honor Society by the way. Yup, that close...didn't meet them but I got to see them smile up close and I love smiles and they have wonderful smiles!

movies I love that make me cry...

In a good way of course. They also make me smile. I love these movies and more of course. They really calm me down especially when I get a good cry out of it. :)









That's an amazing scene from the movie Tru Confessions. ♥

There are more of course. I cry at the end of most movies. That's just me =D

hey you with the beautiful face,

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute
or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I
walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The
fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the
flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so
much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout
or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It
ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The
bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

-Maya
Angelou ♥

I love this poem! Maya Angelou is amazing! I used to keep a copy of this poem with some pictures of her on my 11th grade AP Language and Compostion class. It's great to read when you're feeling a little down. It's just so beautiful. It makes me feel beautiful. I love the word choice. Phenomenal. I want to be phenomenal! There is just so much power behind that word! It's defined as, outstanding, highly extraordinary, exceptional, prodigious. You see all of those words? That's what you are! PHENOMENAL!!! I hope you can see it. It's there!

I'm thinking about doing a survey about things that make people smile and then taking their pictures and making a collection called "smiles I love." It should be really fun and interesting to see what makes people smile! I can post one every week and keep a scrapbook about it! I'm really excited now that I'm typing about it. It should be really fun!

Have a beautiful and blessed day. you were beautifully and wonderfully made. I hope you take up the opportunity today to sare your smile with the world because it's beautiful.

smiles, smiles, smiles :)

Smiling is infectious,

You catch it like the flu,

When someone smiled at me today,

I started smiling too.

I passed around the corner,

And someone saw my grin,

When he smiled I realized,

I'd passed it on to him.

I thought about that smile,

Then realized its worth,

A single smile, just like mine,

Could travel round the earth.

So, if you feel a smile begin,

Don't leave it undetected.

Let's start an epidemic quick,

And get the world infected.

I found this poem and I wanted to share it. I love smiles. I have never seen a smile that I didn't love and it's really true that a smile is a chain reaction. You share one and you start and endless chain so don't forget to share your beautiful smile with someone today. Personally, I think that smiles are a little magical. When you share one, it has the chance of warming someone's heart and brightening their day. It's awesome! I just think that if you have the chance of doing something that amazing, you shouldn't miss out on it. One day, I hope to see you smile and I know that it will warm my heart! ♥