quote :)

"Live your life to the
fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.”

Faith and Who I Am.

I love Jesus. I love God. I love the relationship that we have. His love is carved into my heart. I love having faith. It makes my days brighter and my smiles more meaningful. You can tease me or say harsh things about my religion but It's a part of me and it's a part of my life. Nothing can change that. I'm not the kind of person who thinks that my religion is better than others. What people believe in their heart is what they should live to. It's a part of what we are. Don't be afraid to be you. You're amazing. Embrace it. Don't shy away from the amazing opportunity that comes from being true to yourself. Most of my days are fun because I enjoy the person that I am. Sometimes, I make myself smile. Sometimes, I make myself cry. It gets hard sometimes but it's worth it. I get to learn about myself, my likes, my dislikes and everything that makes me unique and makes me who I am. I'm still learning and I love it!

Who Am I? Well so far, this is what I've got, I'm a girl...

• who loves laughing
• and love smiles
• loves seeing people happy
• who is smart
• loves to read
• loves music, especially music from the 60's to the 80's
• love her family and friends
• wants to be a psychiatrist
• wants to change the world
• loves to learn about other places in the world and their cultures
• is learning Arabic and Spanish
• loves cold weather
• loves the rain
• loves to see children laugh and smile
• is amazed by her mother
• believes that everyone is beautiful
• believes that every heart will one day be mended
• who love God and loves talking to God
• who loves zebras
• who loves polka dots
• who loves watching Arthur and the Golden Girls
• who loves the adrenline rush of the emergency room
• who loves bright colors
• who loves flowers
• who loves to sing at the top of her lungs when everyone in the house is asleep
• who loves chocolate chip cookies
• who loves baking
• who loves salmon
• who loves sweet tea'
• who dislikes hate, anger, war
• who used to be depressed
• who takes an antidepressant...woo lexapro!!
• who used to cut
• who likes to draw hearts, stars, and flowers everywhere
• who loves writing her name
• who loves writing
• who loves seeing her mommy smile
• who loves her little brother and sister
• who loves teddy bears and stuffed animals
• who loves grey's anatomy
• who loves ballet flats
• who loves shopping
• who loves crying
• who loves thinking
• who loves the Jonas brothers and their smiles, hearts, and music
• who loves george clooney, ricky gervais, idris elba, john mayer, michael cera, rupert grint, and leonardo dicaprio
• who still loves Chris Brown
• who loves earth, wind, and fire :)
• who loves going to concerts
• who wants to travel the world and see all the beautiful sights and people.
• who loves yoga and exercise
• who loves to dance around her room in the morning if she has enough time to
• who loves helping people
• who loves her best friends
• who love talking to her friends outside by a fire in cold weather.
• who loves herself on most days
• who is normal but tries to be the best Kiyanna Shanay that their is.
• who is happy to report that she now knows 6 arabic words :)

determintaion :)

Remember when I was promoting determination? Well, Ihaven't crocheted in a while so today, determination and I are going to work together to make a blanket and hopefully before midnight tonight, I will be able to post a picture of a blue blanket. I've been working on it for a while but I just bought some blue yarn to complete it so today will be the day I finish it. check back later to see the completed blanket! :)

update: 9PM

I warn you, it's my first blanket, it's not perfect but I'm okay with it. I say that I'm finished but I have some beautiful pink yarn that I wouldn't mind adding to it but I'm not sure yet. I'll see how I feel after spending some time with my first hand-made blanket. :)

issues....

Everyone has problems right? They can be as big as a mountain or they can be as small as a pebble but don't we all have our problems? It's impossible to not have any issues. It's a part of life, it's just something we all have to deal with. I learned from a very amazing book called, "God's little devotional book for students" that "a problem rarely decreases size while a person stands and stares at it." It is so true! We can stare at our problems and feel sorry for ourselves or we can go ahead and deal with them. It will be hard but we learn a lot from every joruney and every experience. No one ever said it was going to be easy but that doesn't mean it isn't possible. It's possible, very possible to make our way through problems. We're strong enough to work through it. We can do it.

quote :)

"Yes, the past can hurt, but the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it." --Rafiki (The Lion King)

words words

"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will hurt the most."

-this girl right here.

some people don't realize this, but words are powerful. Be careful of what you say, you never know how your words may affect someone. when we talk, we shouldn't carry hate in our words. our words should be a representation of the love within ourselves. Why would you want to speak bitter words when I'm sure that sweet words would taste much better.

Determination.

Sometimes, I'll sit in class, tired and stressed out and I think, I'm putting so much effort into everything and it feels like I'm getting nothing in return. What we get out of life is equal to the amount of effort we put into it. I feel like I put in so much effort but I keep getting pushed back dowm. I don't want to let them win. They should not be anywhere near my fight. This is my fight. This is my fight and they have no business trying to interupt it. They have no right to throw in their own punches so I refuse to let them. From now on, it's my fight against the world and no one person or thing is going to stand in the way of me getting my prize. I'm climbing a mountain and no little avalanch will stop me from getting to the top. I won't let them get in my way and I hope you choose to keep them out of your fight too. Don't let them throw you off course. Don't let them stop you from reaching your goals.
That's important when you're trying to reach your goal, don't let anytihng stop you. Keep on fighting, even if you think you're going no where, fight, fight, fight. Don't forget about determination. Determination takes you far, it can result in some beautiful things. It's good to have determination. Don't give up. When you keep working hard, you'll be amazed by the end result.

believe in you!!

"Once you believe in yourself, you'll
always be a winner."

-Kiyanna Shanay

hope quote

"Hope is like a bird that senses the dawn and carefully starts to sing while it is still dark. "

You are ENOUGH.

I am enough. Am I? I hope that I am enough because I'm all that I've got.

There are no guidelines for who you should be. You are who you are and what you are is beautiful and wonderful. What you are is a precious individual who is powerful beyond measure. You have the power of hope, the power of love. The power of your heart. It's a power that can conquer all things. We forget about it sometimes but it is there. It is there and it is real. You are enough. Don't worry about living up to society's standards for a person your gender, age, and race. Be yourself. Be true to yourself because you are all you've got and you're wonderful the way you are. Don't let other people get you down. Believe that you are enough because you are. You're wonderful and please don't forget it. Don't let them win this fight. Don't give up.

2010 :)

2009 is gone and 2010 is finally here. I wish everyone the best this year and I hope that your holiday season was wonderful.

With 2009 being over, I'd like to say that it was a very good year for me. I changed a lot and I learned a lot also. I've met some awesome people from all over the world who have inspired me to travel, I'm currently trying to convince my mom to let me go to Egypt this year. It's really been a lot of fun. I've seen cool organizations start and do big things like operation beautiful, project beauty, every girl is beautiful in their own way, a mended heart, holding of wrist, etc. I love to see people trying to help others and I know that I'll see a lot more of it in 2010. Last year I did somethings that I hope stay in 2009. Like cutting, eating my emotions, letting people bring me down, etc.. I'm not taking any of that into thise new year. New Year, new attitude. :)

This year there are some things that I'm certain I want to do,

1. I want to make a million smiles :) I'm going to start out on twitter and posting notes around my school. follow the twitter please http://www.twitter.com/happy_hearts. I really want to give people a reason to wake up and smile. To know that happiness is worth it. I want people to smile because their heart is happy.
2. I want to learn two languages. Arabic and Spanish.
3. Graduate and start college!!! :)
4. I need to be more organized and study more!

I really feel like this year will be a great one. I hope that there is a lot more love in the world this year. I have big plans and I know that many other people do too and I wish everyone the best. I'm thankful to everyone I met in 2009, on twitter and facebook, I also want to thank everyone who has ever read my blog. You all have been great contributions to my life and I love you for that. Let's throw a party one day. I'll bring the love, you bring the peace and happiness. Love you. Happy New Year :)

Hello 2010. Bring it.

quotes :)

"You can explore the universe looking for somebody who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are, and never find that person anywhere."