:)

The fall classes begin on monday and I'm ready! During the summer semester, I did well, adjusted well after some help, and then did well academically with the exception of one C in my American History class :(

Other than the C, I got two beautiful As. I'm very proud of them and they make my C look less unattractive. I'm ready for the new adventure that I'm hoping this semester will bring.

I have a women's studies class that I'm reakky excited about. I took one over summer and it was basically a sex class called Human Sexual Behavior but I learned a lot. It was so much fun. I like women's studies and I'm really thinking about becoming an advocate for women's rights. Who knows how it will all turn out.

With a dream and all the right resources, the possibilities are truly endless.

in a disney mood :)

we are more than you think

"where would we be if we couldn't dream?"

picture is from a note I made and put in one of the bathrooms of my high school last year. I was really sad when it disappeared. I worked pretty hard on it. I was happy that it was seen though :)

love you. love your dreams :)

As a dreamer, I think that I should share a message with dreamers everywhere. ♥

Our dreams are beautiful and unique just like we are. Our dreams should inspire our lives. Our dreams represent who we are as people. They represent our desires and our inner beauty. You know what's best for you and you know what dreams are worth fighting for so I want to encourage you to fight for what your heart wants.

Don't let anyone tell you that you're not going to be what you want to be. Don't let them tell you that you can't do it because each day that we make it through, we become stronger, we learn more about the world and about ourselves and that's what will help us make it. That's the extra push that help us reach our dreams.

my ideal trip :)

I wish that I could go on vacation. I think I deserve a good spa day. I kind of want to put everything on hold and go on my ideal vacation.

This is my dream trip, it would span over the time of a year or two but realistically, I know that isn't possible.

First, I would travel to Egypt. I would then go see the sights. Meet some awesome people. Eat the food. Go shopping. Go dancing. Find a spa. relax sleep and then visit a spa again.


From Egypt, I would go to England. Find a spa. relax. sleep. spend some time with my family there. go take some of them to the spa. eat food. find the harry potter cast. not all of them. just rupert grint. go to T.G.I.Fridays with him and eat good food and talk.
Then I would go ice skating and maybe hiking with a few of my cousins at some of the beautiful parks over there across the pond. :)
I would then go to the spa again and maybe sleep some more. I love watching movies with family so I would do that there too.


From England I would go to South Africa. I would go to the beaches. I've heard that the beaches there are beautiful.

I would also love to see the mountains and maybe climb them...? hmmm...I would, yes I would...and I would love it. Then I would dance with a family friend I have over there. I haven't seen her in so long and I would love to visit her!


My next stop would be where ever the world's best chocolate is. I'm not sure where that is but I would try to go to Hershey, Pennsylvania first and see what they have to offer because I know that they have a spa. A spa that centered around chocolate. how amazing is that?



Since I'll be back in America, it would be the perfect time for me to just go on a road trip and see the whole country that way. From Chocolate Land, I would fly to New York, visit my family there, borrow someone's car and then zigzag the country. I'll have to make sure I see all the landmarks and visit all the zoos and eat all the good food.


After that I would go to the caribbean and visit my family in Grenada and Jamaica and then I would go to the beaches and of course eat the food! I already know the food is good so I know what to expect!


It wouldn't end there of course. Once I get started, I'll probably never want to stop. For now, I'll start of slow and inexpensive. I'm planning a trip to the zoo and the aquarium that's near the college I'm attending. That should be really fun. I can just pretend that I'm in a different country visiting the beautiful and unique animals. ♥

yeah....

Yeah so you use your words and your actions to try to hurt me. somtimes I just find it annoying but other times it really hurts. I may cry, I may cut myself, I may just eat until the sadness goes away but just because it has that much of a negative effect on me doesn't mean that you win. In my opinion, I'm the winner because yeah I may cry but I'm still not going to try to hurt you like you've hurt me because no one deserves that. It's just that simple. I know that it won't matter in the future. It isn't going to destroy my life so I have no need to be a jackass to the people who are acting like that towards me. Hopefully, if they're normal people, they'll move on once they actually grow up and hopefully they grow up learning how to finally treat people, all people, with the respect they deserve.

yeah, I have dreams.

new chapter: coming soon.

It's so hard to pay attention when it's sometimes so much easier for me to daydream. There are so many things to think about. Especially when I'm so excited about starting school this summer.

In just a few short months, 30 school days, I'll be done with high school and then just several days after that, I'll be starting my new life as a college freshman. It's just really exciting. I can't wait! I've started shopping and I have a few things in my suitcase. I've been doing scholarships and filling out tons of forms. So much work but I'm so happy to do it because it's all contributing to the upcoming chapter in my life.

That's not all my dreams are filled with however. I also dream of a time when my heart will be completely happy all of the time. I dream of how it would make my interactions with people different. I dream of how I'd look and how I would help others with their happy hearts, if that's there wish. Which reminds me that tomorrow, April 21, 2010, is To Write Love On Her Arms Day. I'll be writing love on my arm or wrist tomorrow of course. check out twloha if you haven't already. http://www.twloha.com/

I also dream of peace and how the world can achieve it.

I also dream of traveling the world and going away next summer. I wonder where I would go. I know that where ever I go, I'm sure I would fall in love with the place because I love learning and seeing new things. I think that tomorrow I'll begin a list of places I want to go to and things I want to see. I'll try to narrow it down by next summer.

I dream a lot, it's distracting but sometimes it's okay to escape from the rest of the world for a little bit and see what's really going on up there in my mind.

he could be the one...

or not......who knows?

That's what I thought but maybe he wasn't. He wants some things that I don't want to give him and all I wanted was to be wanted and have some one who I could trust and talk to. Some one who could be there for me and I could be there for them. I knew that it wasn't going to work out all that great when he started asking some very odd questions...I should have set him straight then but he paid so much attention to me. He told me things that I had been longing to hear. I was trapped. But then he changed his mind. I really only liked him because he treated me like I was special maybe that's the issue. It was probably wrong to like him for that reason instead of liking him for who he is but I couldn't help it, he just made me feel so wanted and I couldn't help but not like him. There was also the thing about his smile and him making me smile etc...it helped a lot but not enough to be more important than the fact he made me feel beautiful and special. I'll figure this whole guy thing out one day. And when I find him, he will be worth the wait and I hope that I'll like him for him and he'll like me for me. All a girl can do is hope, experience, learn, and wait.

2010 :)

2009 is gone and 2010 is finally here. I wish everyone the best this year and I hope that your holiday season was wonderful.

With 2009 being over, I'd like to say that it was a very good year for me. I changed a lot and I learned a lot also. I've met some awesome people from all over the world who have inspired me to travel, I'm currently trying to convince my mom to let me go to Egypt this year. It's really been a lot of fun. I've seen cool organizations start and do big things like operation beautiful, project beauty, every girl is beautiful in their own way, a mended heart, holding of wrist, etc. I love to see people trying to help others and I know that I'll see a lot more of it in 2010. Last year I did somethings that I hope stay in 2009. Like cutting, eating my emotions, letting people bring me down, etc.. I'm not taking any of that into thise new year. New Year, new attitude. :)

This year there are some things that I'm certain I want to do,

1. I want to make a million smiles :) I'm going to start out on twitter and posting notes around my school. follow the twitter please http://www.twitter.com/happy_hearts. I really want to give people a reason to wake up and smile. To know that happiness is worth it. I want people to smile because their heart is happy.
2. I want to learn two languages. Arabic and Spanish.
3. Graduate and start college!!! :)
4. I need to be more organized and study more!

I really feel like this year will be a great one. I hope that there is a lot more love in the world this year. I have big plans and I know that many other people do too and I wish everyone the best. I'm thankful to everyone I met in 2009, on twitter and facebook, I also want to thank everyone who has ever read my blog. You all have been great contributions to my life and I love you for that. Let's throw a party one day. I'll bring the love, you bring the peace and happiness. Love you. Happy New Year :)

Hello 2010. Bring it.

dream. dream. dream.

Lately, I've been feeling like I'll never accomplish anything, like none of my dreams will come true or that they're too big for my own good. It's a horrible feeling to feel so inadequate. So small in a world so big. Today, I realized something. I realized that if I work at it and have compassion for what I'm doing, I'll have the power to become my dreams and make a difference......right? I sure hope so because I love my dreams, not the ones I have when I'm sleeping, the ones I can control and come from my heart. I love dreaming big and I think that we all should. Sometimes we should dream huge! I think that it's healthy for us to take a break once in a while and see what our heart and our imagination can create, sometimes it's beautiful and we just want it to come true and if it's our true heart's desire and if it's possible, I think that we should try our best to work at it. I know that in this new year, I'll be working on my dream. I'll be trying to make a million hearts smile. I don't know how it will work, but I'm going to try. I'll go into more detail when I get it started but I think I'm really going to make it work. I was so happy when I realized that I'm not just stuck in one place. I cried when I realized that it's possible for me to do bigger and better things. I felt like I was being held back but no one is holding me back because I believe in myself. If you believe in yourself, if you have hope for you and your future, no one can keep you down, no one can keep you away from what's yours. "When you have hope, you're nobody's prisoner." It's true! Don't forget to believe in yourself and follow your dreams. be safe and be careful. be beautiful. be you. be strong. be brave. be true to yourself. be the best you that you can be. be amazing. be powerful. be loving. be you. be a dreamer. it's okay. don't be afraid. :)

Reach for it!

Is there a goal that you'd like to reach? Don't be afraid.

Nothing is impossible. Be Fearless and follow your dreams.

"Reach for the stars, even if you fall, you'll land among the clouds."

I've found that there are so many people who feel as if they don't fit in and they don't know what it is that makes them special. We're all special, unique, and beautiful. You may think that there is nothing special you but that's not true. If you can't see it yet maybe it's just hidden, but trust me, it's there. You just have to find it. Make it your goal to find it. Chances are it's already there and you just haven't noticed it. You never know if you've made someone's day with just the flash of your smile. You never know if your simple hello or thank you changed someone's outlook for the rest of the day. You could be the most special thing on this planet to someone else and not even know it. Remember that you're special and you always will be. Someone sees the light shine in you like no one else can. Someone believes in you always and loves you unconditionally. Never, ever forget that. Because someone believes in you, you can achieve all goals. You can follow your dreams. You have the ability to find what makes you feel special and then be the best you that there ever was. Believing in yourself is the first step and you can do that because someone loves and believes in you. Reach your goal. Nothing is impossible when it is supported by unconditional love.

"If a goal is worthy, there is no good reason to stop pursuing it!

Find something you truly want to do, then go for it with all your heart, mind and strength."

-God's Little Devotion Book for Students.