Happy Monday!

You shouldn't start a day with the feeling that it's going to be a bad day. I usually just assume that Mondays will be horrible and long because I usually have a really busy day.

Today caught me by surprise however. My morning class was canceled because our TA never showed up. We waiting the required 15 minutes and then an extra 2 minutes to give him the benefit of the doubt and then we ran out of there like it was a crime scene. It felt so good not to spend an hour or so discussing chemistry and doing our weekly quiz. I went back to my room and got all comfy before my Chemistry lecture which felt shorter today then it usually does. My Chem professor also decided to play the song Free Fallin' before class began. I delightfully sang along. I then had more time to relax in my room. The dining hall had yummy chicken salad that I love. It tastes so good, makes my day every time. Now I have more time to relax, blog, and get some work done. This is the best Monday I've had in a while.

I will never again underestimate the power of a brand new day. I guess there can always be beauty everywhere you look. Today it was found in the form of relaxing and breathing room throughout the day. WONDERFUL!

From a wonderful woman...

AIN'T I A WOMAN?

by Sojourner Truth


Delivered 1851 at the Women's Convention in Akron, Ohio


"Well, children, where there is so much racket there must be something out of kilter. I think that 'twixt the negroes of the South and the women at the North, all talking about rights, the white men will be in a fix pretty soon. But what's all this here talking about?
That man over there says that women need to be helped into carriages, and lifted over ditches, and to have the best place everywhere. Nobody ever helps me into carriages, or over mud-puddles, or gives me any best place! And ain't I a woman? Look at me! Look at my arm! I have ploughed and planted, and gathered into barns, and no man could head me! And ain't I a woman? I could work as much and eat as much as a man - when I could get it - and bear the lash as well! And ain't I a woman? I have borne thirteen children, and seen most all sold off to slavery, and when I cried out with my mother's grief, none but Jesus heard me! And ain't I a woman?

Then they talk about this thing in the head; what's this they call it? [member of audience whispers, "intellect"] That's it, honey. What's that got to do with women's rights or negroes' rights? If my cup won't hold but a pint, and yours holds a quart, wouldn't you be mean not to let me have my little half measure full?

Then that little man in black there, he says women can't have as much rights as men, 'cause Christ wasn't a woman! Where did your Christ come from? Where did your Christ come from? From God and a woman! Man had nothing to do with Him.

If the first woman God ever made was strong enough to turn the world upside down all alone, these women together ought to be able to turn it back , and get it right side up again! And now they is asking to do it, the men better let them.

Obliged to you for hearing me, and now old Sojourner ain't got nothing more to say."

we are more than you think

"where would we be if we couldn't dream?"

picture is from a note I made and put in one of the bathrooms of my high school last year. I was really sad when it disappeared. I worked pretty hard on it. I was happy that it was seen though :)

Princess :)

By now, I know that life isn't a fairytale but I still like to think of myself as a princess. I think princesses are awesome so I feel special knowing that I'm one too. A princess is a young woman with power and as a young lady, I have a lot of power.

I have the power of love. Love is really powerful. We're loving beings. We're made to love and be loved and having that love in us make us all really powerful. Even though we don't always see the love there, it's there making us stronger. I know a lot of people feel unloved at times or some times all of the time but it's there. It's all around you. you're really not alone. i promise. I really do.

With the power of love. We have the chance to learn. We can accept other cultures and love people for who they are. That's super amazing. We have the power to be open minded and accepting of the world around us. Not everyone uses that power but it's so cool when you do.

Another power that qualifies me for being a princess is the power of hope. I'm all about hope. Hope is believing that what you want can be had. It's believing, it's trusting, it's feeling strongly that something can/will happen. It's really powerful. We have the power to allow hope to come inside our hearts and that's when we start seeing things differently in a more positive light but not unrealistically which is very healthy.

There is also the power of using my own mind. Having opinions and views and sharing them. The power to seek knowledge and go on adventures through reading like my favorite disney princess, Belle. =] People don't always acknowledge the power and importance of knowledge but it really is important. It can take us anywhere and paired with hope, and all the other amazing qualities of a princess, it can help you to become what ever you want to be.

We have to be brave so that we can find the courage to learn about the world around us. To accept new things and to understand them. It takes a lot of courage to step out of your comfort zone but it's possible and with bravery, you can make it happen. I never thought I could do it but it happened and it worked for me.

Princesses are also beautiful and we are all beautiful so that's really the first and easiest qualification.

That's what makes me a princess, strength, love, hope, courage, beauty, bravery, and being myself. Who I am is someone amazing and who you are is someone phenomenal and we make the world a better place just by living in it. We're royalty you know =] ♥

watch me...you

picture stolen from weheartit.com. I
could spend hours just looking at the images there. check it out!

I'm posting it here to promote beautiful dreams. We all need a bit of encouragement especially in those times when someone tells you that you're a fool to believe in yourself and that you'll never make. You'll make it. Believe in yourself and then go ahead and reach for the stars. You can do it. If you ever need help, I'm here and I'll support you as much as you can.

You might think that the whole world is waiting for you to fail but...nope, you're not alone and I believe in you and if you believe in yourself then there's two people right there! Two is company!

You're more loved than you can possibly understand. I don't understand it but sometimes I feel it there and I realize that it's real. When I feel that love that I sometimes believe doesn't exsist, I grow a little stronger and I find myself doing things I never thought capable of me.

We all have to believe. Believe in love but mostly in ourselves. When we love ourselves and believe in ourselves and support ourselves, we can find the love and hope around us so much more easily. if that sentence didn't make any sense, I apoligize...I've been out of school. But I hope you do reach for the stars and not let any meanies tell you that you can't.

something I'm confused about....

sometimes I wonder if it's better to go unoticed through life or to have the whole world know your name. maybe it's best to be some where in between? maybe it's best for me to cry and go without comfort because no one notices my tears. maybe it'll make me stronger...but who's to say that the people who are noticed and receive comfort from others aren't strong? I think that they're strong, that's one of the reasons they're noticed.

Sometimes I wonder, with a thing like comfort, why isn't it all equal? we all need love. we can't grow as people without it so why isn't there more of it in the world. why isn't it spread as often as it's needed?

It's just something that confuses me. Sometimes it actually makes me angry and I hate it. I really need some other view points though. what do you think?

I just wish there was more love in this world. is anything wrong with that?

my smile

"you're not fully dressed until you wear a smile."

That up there is my smile. It's a part of me that I love the most. Above the boobs and in between last year's prom weave, lies my smile. I think it's beautiful. I love it because it's mine. It reminds me of all the beautiful and strong women that have raised me, like my grandma, my mommy, and my auntie jackie. My grandmother is no longer here but I think she still lives through my smile, and the rest of my face because I kind of look like her. My smile represents my strength and my ability to become whatever I want to be because that's what those beautiful women taught me. I can only use the strength of my smile if I'm brave enough to share it with the world so there. that's my smile.

Wonka Lessons

Even though I'm a child of the 90's, Willy Wonka and The Chocolate Factory, a movie from 1971, has been one of my favorite movies for as long as I can remember. I watched it today and realized that this movie has a lot of lessons that we should all be aware of. Besides the lessons sung by the Oompa Loompas that even I thought were obvious back when I was about 7 or so. These are all the other just as important messages that I noticed while watching today:

-The innocence of a child is a force more powerful than the power of grown man and his many oompa loompas working together.

-"There is no life I know to compare with pure imagination. Living there, you'll be free if you truly wish to be." --Willy Wonka

-" A little nonsense now and then is relished by the wisest men." --Willy Wonka

-The rain cannot fall forever. Better days will come and even when we're feeling as low as we think we could ever possibly be, we need to always keep hope alive. We can't give up. We have to always remember that sometimes it gets worse before it gets better.

-Chocolate has the power to make people crazy.

-Having little to nothing helps up see what's truly important and those are the things that keep up strong when it seems like we have nothing at all.

There might be more but that's all I can think of at the moment. This movie will always be one of my favorites. It's so deep....

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make the most of all the stress?

stress: physical or emotional tension; emphasis; pressure.

People always say that "dealing with stress makes you stonger." It may be true that stress makes us stronger but why does it have to be so hard to handle sometimes. When it makes us feel like there is a mountain on our backs and we feel like giving up because we can't see the point anymore, we need to keep going. We can't give up. I think there just may be a reason for all of our stress problems. I think we go under so much stress so that we can appreciate it more when our lives are going "normal" and things are going "smoothly." Apparently, everything is a lesson and the "stress lesson" teaches us that we can get out of those dark days and that there are better days are ahead. I'd still like to know why is has to be so hard but I understand that it can show us strong and powerful we can be.

"It Always Rains the Hardest on the People Who Deserve the Sun"

Clearly, a lot of stress and hard times means that we're special. Overcoming it and finding a way to smile makes us more powerful that we've ever known ourselves to be before. We can get through the dark days. It's possible. We just have to know that we can never give up hope!


These are somethings I look to when I'm stressed:

and MUSIC =]

It may be silly but they do relax me a lot and I love them.
listen to Faith by Jordin Sparks

"when the sky is darkest, you can see the stars. when you fall the hardest, you find how strong you are. Close your eyes rest a while, it's been a long long day. So come on baby baby, have a little faith."

-Jordin Sparks

The MONSTER -_-

I've been facing a monster for a while now. I let it attack me because I didn't know how to deal with it. I let it attack me. I allowed myself to believe it when he told me I was the person I am because of him. I let this monster tell me that the things I believed in were stupid and weren't important to anyone else. I let this monster insult my intelligence. I ignored this monster's stand for inequality and just let things go on because I was afraid. Because even though this person hurting me is a monster, I didn't want to hurt them. I feared the reaction that I might have recieved if I told him my true feelings. I was afraid that he would just treat me worse and I thought I didn't have the self-esteem to deal with it.

I refuse to take the criticism. I refuse to let him put me down anymore and then blame everyone else for the way I treat him when the way I treat him is the result of the way he puts me down and talks to me like I don't have any feelings. It's all been so much to handle and worry about but I've recently realized that I'm so much more smarter than this monster. For one, I don't treat people the way he does. I would never treat a part of me the way he treats me. It just isn't right. I would never insult anyone's intelligence the way he insults mine. It won't make me a better person if I put everyone else beneath me so why should I keep ignoring it when he does it. I won't stand for it anymore. I'm letting this monster know that he cannot harm me anymore. I'm not going to let him bring me down anymore because I've realized that monsters don't think the way humans do and letting him get to me is just stupid. I know that I'm pretty okay person and not because I'm his child. I don't get good grades just because I'm his child and I'm not mature for my age because I'm his child like he says. I am who I am because, just like everyone else, I see the world through my own eyes and deal with it the way I think it should be dealt and not by following what others tell me. I'm not going to let him ruin me ever again....

I'm learning to love myself and I will not let this monster get in the way of that ever.