one of those days

Today could have gone better but it was just one of those days. We all have them so I'm trying to keep complaining to a minimum and I'm trying to cheer myself up as much as possible.
So...Cheering up activities, although minor, included:

• free pancakes and donating to a good cause♥
• Arthur
• an amazing but short nap
• painted my nails :)
• someone wrote "I ♥ U" on my door.
• Later on, I'm going to have my inspirational playlist on repeat!
• Having a beautifully decorated room is just always a plus.
  

I'm okay with dwelling in the slumps for a little bit because I know that for the most part, it's a lot better than it could have been. It's definitely not the worse so life goes on and I have a 7:30 class in the morning. It's sleep time. Goodnight. Sweet Dreams. You are a loved and beautiful soul. ♥

realizations.

People don't always make fun of others because they're different. People make fun of others for being themselves.

When you think about that way, it seems as worse as it actually is...I think so anyway. It's sad but it's true. People are usually made fun of for being themselves.

[insert sad animal face here].

18!!!

I am now an adult, I guess. August 6th was my birthday and I am now 18 years old. I am an adult now right? Also, the 6th was my last day of classes for the summer semester which was bittersweet in my opinion. I had to take an icky American History final exam but my Human Sexual Behavior class was canceled so I had more time to pack and rest before my mom and my aunt and all of the beautiful little kids came to pick me up. Unfortunately, the cake above was not my birthday cake. My mom got me cake from bob evans, actually, I had my birthday dinner at bob evans. I don't feel that different, especially since I had already been living on my own in college for the past 7 weeks. I do feel a bit older though, I was able to buy a scratch off today and my mom keeps telling me how grown up I am. I think I've always been an adult, not always but for a while, I had grown up very fast and I was mature. I aged from things like saving myself and all the fights I've had that I won! I think those things made me older than I really was.

I'm also going to miss my summer. It was so much fun. My college years are off to a good start I think. I met a lot of cool people and I learned a lot. Of course I went to college to learn but I think I learned a lot about life also. I learned about how it is to live with people and how to manage time. I learned what study techniques work best for me even though I still need to work on that some more...*laughs* I also learned how to take care of myself a little bit better. My mom isn't alway there anymore to help me out so I have to make it work on my own. I'm so glad I'm with her now though on my break between semesters. *yay!!* I also learned to stick up with what I believe no matter what people say about it or try to tell you about it. My beliefs make me who I am so I can't change that for anyone. I'm grown now. I have to stick up for me because it's getting harder and harder to find someone who is going to do it for me. Another year strong and I'm living my life for me!

and she realized.

It says, "that even though sometimes we feel like we will never be good enough, there's at least one person out there that finds every thing you do is perfect and would give up their whole life for you to realize that."

I asked this beautiful girl, "what is one of the greatest things that she has ever realized" and I recieved one beautiful, phenomenal answer. She is absolutely right! A lot of times I think a lot of us think that we're not good enough and even though we're trying our hardest and it seems like nothing is happening, we're not really letting anyone down. We think we are but the people who truly love us and are really there for us will always be supporting us 100%. I think that's hard for us to realize sometimes but like the lovely Dalia said, "there is at least one person out there that finds every thing that you do is perfect and would give up their whole life for you to realize that." For me, I know for sure that one of those people is my mom. She's always supporting me even on those days when I look in the mirror and see a complete failure of a person. It's very refreshing =]

She makes me smile.

The next time you face the world, know that it's okay to make some mistakes. It's okay to mess up sometimes. It's okay if you're not as perfect as you think you should be. Someone still loves you. Someone still knows that you're trying your best and that they love you for you and what you are. What you are is a beautiful and phenomenal person who is enough.

Don't forget to share your smile with the world! ♥

bittersweet moment #1

realizing that you can't make someone like you.

If a guy doesn't like me for who I am then he's not worth it. I shouldn't hate him for it and I really shouldn't waste my time on him. I can't change who I am for someone and I shouldn't have to. Who I am is impossible to change. Someday though, I know I'll find someone who loves me for who I am. We all will. I also know that he'll be worth the wait. I don't think anyone should be worth the trouble of changing your whole personality. It just should not be like that. I'm going to be true to myself and live the life I want to live. The life that feels right in my heart. I'm living my life for me and not to fit anyone else's idea of what my life should be. If someone doesn't like it, it's not a big deal. I can't make anyone like me so I'm not going to try anymore. Someday my prince will come and he'll be worth the wait. A girl can dream :) Hopefully fairytales really do come true.

"Some day my prince will come

Some day we'll meet again

And away to his castle we'll go

To be happy forever I know

Some day when spring is here

We'll find our love anew

And the birds will sing

And wedding bells will ring

Some day when my dreams come true"