may 7th reasons to smile.

• Today is friday! I actually kept forgetting that but I am so happy that I've reached friday, the week that was blessed with two AP tests for me. Happy Friday!!
• I'm about to make popcorn with my little brother and sister and we're going to watch a movie of their choice. It should be totally awesome. I'm wearing my micky mouse pajamas, my sister is going to wear her princess and the frog pajamas and my brother is probably going to wear mickey pajamas also. we're a very disney loving household.
• I voted for a graduation song today, I voted for the very awesome Green Day song that you can watch here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1PK2R0IwCiY
• I laughed a lot today. that's always a good thing.
• again...it's FRIDAY!!!
• They played "Hey Mickey" in the cafeteria today. It was awesome
• I listened to a ton of old and awesome songs on youtube, including "It's Tricky" by Run DMC which I played multiple times and it will probably be stuck in my head all weekend. =]

Now I have to go get into my mickey mouse pajamas and make some popcorn. The kids have decided to watch alvin and the chimpmunks! Happy Friday!!

may 6th's reasons to smile

I should have done this last night but I was attacked by the beautiful sleep monster. I'm very much awak now, I think I slept for about 11 hours. It's nothing compared to my record of 20 hours but I was medicated then. Here are yesterday's reasons to smile!

• I took my 2nd AP test yesterday. 2 down, 1 more to go!
• My wonderful AP teacher had donuts delivered to our testing site so that our class could have delicious donuts before our test.
• I had to green apple jolly ranchers. they're my favorite kind. I don't really like jolly ranchers but I needed something to help me focus and apple anything is okay with me.
• I made cupcakes for the teachers at my brother and sister's school. It's teachers' appreciation week and I love baking so it was a great time to make some cupcakes. They were funfetti with strawberry icing. =]
• I also didn't have to go to school. After AP tests, were free for the rest of the day!
• We got an air conditioner, it was needed at our house. seriously.
• I saw lots of smiles that I love ♥
• went to walmart. I love walmart
• I watched the proposal yesterday. It's so cute!! I love that movie!

some inspiration for you!

I'm not invincible

I may not always see how strong I am but I know that I am strong. I know this because I fight my struggles every day and even though at the end of some days, I'm a little worn out, I still know that I've made it through the day and that I'm strong enough to keep on fighting. and I will.

also, the picture is a secret from OUTS 2.0 on facebook.

yeah....

Yeah so you use your words and your actions to try to hurt me. somtimes I just find it annoying but other times it really hurts. I may cry, I may cut myself, I may just eat until the sadness goes away but just because it has that much of a negative effect on me doesn't mean that you win. In my opinion, I'm the winner because yeah I may cry but I'm still not going to try to hurt you like you've hurt me because no one deserves that. It's just that simple. I know that it won't matter in the future. It isn't going to destroy my life so I have no need to be a jackass to the people who are acting like that towards me. Hopefully, if they're normal people, they'll move on once they actually grow up and hopefully they grow up learning how to finally treat people, all people, with the respect they deserve.

yeah, I have dreams.

let's fight the feeling.

I'm at school. Freedom from this is so close I can taste it. I'm usually good with fighting that "this isn't going to be the greatest of days" feeling. Today I think I'm going to have to fight extra hard especially since this week is filled with AP testing and I won't actually be doing much learning or school work for the matter when I'm actually at school. If I'm at school I need to be doing some kind of work to keep my mind from going crazy. If I'm going to go crazy...(crazier), then shouldn't I just be at home in bed then? I guess it's good for the quiet time so I can study for more exams but I think that senioritis is kicking in. I don't want to do much of anything but go get myself together graduation and college....that means shopping!


I know that I have the power to make this day what I want it to be. I can just give up and say "this is going to be a bad day" or I can smile, ignore the giant yellow ink stain on my scrub pants and make the best of it. That's my plan, to make the best of it.


To look at the winnie the pooh sticker on my phone becuase it always makes me smile. Or I can look at the bracelets I've made. They're really colorful and a great little source of positive energy that's why I make them so often. I really should take a picture of them one day.


It feels like 100 degrees outside but I'll make the best of it. I know that when this day is over, a new one begins, a new ray of hope and one day closer to my 18th birthday which is 94 days from today! =]

this is true...

"your words can create the most beautiful dream or your word can destroy everything around you."

People often underestimate the power of words. Words are very powerful. You can use your words to spread love or your words can ultimately hurt someone. I favorite words are hope, love, dreams, rupert grint, zebras, etc. =] Those are the words that make me smile. However, there are many words that people put together that have the power to make me cry, they can turn my whole world upside down. I really shouldn't be taking some of those words personally but sometimes I can't help it and I know there are many other people in the world who can't help getting hurt either. I really wish we used to beautiful words. I wish that we could put an end to the use of harsh words. Those words that cause people to cry, that cause people to harm themselves and sometimes commit suicide. The worst part is that the words aren't even out of the ordinary words. They tend to be run of the mill words that just happen to be phrased in a way that was meant to hurt or to tease, like "you're ugly" or "you're the most unworthy person I know" It's phrases like those that have the power to create a disaster in some one's world and it isn't even nescessary! I just wish it could go bye bye. I try to use words that spread hope or beauty and I encourage you to spread love through your words too and be careful of what you say, we all need to be, becasue we don't know how someone will react to our words. "If you can't say something nice, don't say nothing at all." that's from bambi♥.....I'm pretty sure ;)

some of my reasons to smile today:

• I was filling out some forms and one section was titled, indetification information, and that really made me giggle. It was cute.
• I'm done with one AP test and I have 2 more until I'm done with AP testing
• I'm almost one month away from graduating and then shortly after I graduate, I'll be going away to college!
• my sister is 100% better after having strep throat

may 2nd...reasons to smile!

• I went to an AP government study session today. Got to learn and laugh a lot. I love getting together for a good reason and eating great cookies. My teacher's mom made amazing cookies!

I pretty much spent my entire day there so that's my list. =]

I have to take two AP exams this week. One on Monday and another one on Thursday and then one next Wednesday. I'm really ready to get them over with.

Closer and closer to graduation and then the college! woot woot! =]

I hope with this upcoming week, you remember that you're beautiful. I hope you remember that you're special and you're loved. YOU'RE AMAZING! I don't think I can ever stress that enough. I just want everyone to realize how special and precious they are.

today's reasons to smile

It's 3 am so technically these are yesterday's reasons to smile but I haven't gone to bed yet and I want to record what made me smile today. I was looking over some old posts and I looked at the one that challenged everyone to track what makes them smile and make a list every night before bed. Here it is! http://thoughtsunderpressure.blogspot.com/2009/08/reasons-to-smile.html

my reasons to smile...May 1st.

• I had enough time today to listen to all my favorite songs. I really like old songs from the 50's and 60's they make my heart happy. I can't really explain it but it's sort of like they make me think of all the awesome clothes they used to wear back then. I think that music will always be an escape for people and when I listen to those songs, I feel like I can travel to those times and just dance into a world of happiness.


• I saw honor society while I was watching Alvin and the Chimpmunks the sqeaukquel. I knew they were going to be in the movie but I didn't think they would be the first faces I saw. I love those gents. They can always make me smile! All I could remember though is how I was like 2 minutes away from meeting them and they walked like 3 feet infront of me last summer. It was amazing!


• I got to talk to my lovely twitter friends


• Rupert Grint.....I watched a few...like 20...videos of him doing interviews and things like that. I also read some interviews with him and he makes me over the moon happy. I used to dream about him. It was one summer and I dreamt about him every night because he's just so wonderful and beautiful and talented and I can talk about him for hours so I'll just stop now. =] ♥

This is Andrew from Honor Society by the way. Yup, that close...didn't meet them but I got to see them smile up close and I love smiles and they have wonderful smiles!

his life philosophy

"Laugh at yourself"