Have you ever had a day where you just had to tell yourself, "I should've just stayed home" or "I should've just stayed in bed." Yesterday was one of those days for me.
I had a horrible stomach ache and was nauseous for the majority of the day. Left the house without an umbrella on the day that all of April's showers wanted to pour from the sky and missed my bus because I had to go back for it. Missing that bus caused me to miss to my transfer and my nauseous self had to wait in the freezing rain for 20 minutes for the next bus. No seats on the bus. Almost got stuck on the bus. Got to work where I began to feel even more sick and eventually had to leave work to go home early because I did not want to faint or throw up at work. Got soaked on my way home and felt no relief from my stomach pain and nausea until I induced vomiting and threw up the entire contents of my stomach. Throughout my day, I just kept thinking, "I should have stayed in my bed."
However, my day had its small accomplishments and bright moments that I cannot overlook. Getting out of bed was hard to do but I did it. Proud of myself for that. Almost getting stuck on the bus would have usually given me way more anxiety than it did yesterday but I think my focusing on not throwing up made it easier to breathe through so I'm thankful I didn't have a panic attack over that. Before getting on the bus a kind stranger paid for my ginger ale because I apparently left my money at home. So I'm really grateful for that kind stranger. And honestly, throwing up was the best part of my day.
It's so interesting to think about what really makes your day. It really works out when you can find some good in a bad day. That doesn't always happen though and that's okay too. Those are the days when you realize, "I need to treat myself for getting through this shit" and there is nothing wrong with that at all!
Just keep going. One day at a time! :)
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