last post of the 2010

First, I have to say that I hope everyone has a safe New Year's celebration. New Year's Eve is a big family day for us because my grandmother died on New Year's Eve 8 years ago so we always make sure that we're not gloomy on this day. So far, so good. Blasting music, bonfire, dancing, laughs. It's good.

I'll have to say that this year has had a lot of difficult bumps but apparently, I made it. I had a lot of happy moments too. I enjoyed starting college and learning something new. New experiences to share and learn from. I've learned a lot about myself which I hope that I can apply to my life for a very long time. I changed majors so I'll be in a totally new field next year.

Next year I hope to smile a little more and listen to my body better. I hope to hug a lot more and take pictures. My goal every year is to be happy but I think I've realized that it can't be a yearly goal. It's a daily fight but it's worth it every day.

love this

♥ pikkers

secret

keep fighting against sexual assault. pass it on.

1. Don’t put drugs in people’s drinks in order to control their behavior.

2. When you see someone walking by themselves, leave them alone!

3. If you pull over to help someone with car problems, remember not to assault them!

4. NEVER open an unlocked door or window uninvited.

5. If you are in an elevator and someone else gets in, DON’T ASSAULT THEM!

6. Remember, people go to laundry to do their laundry, do not attempt to molest someone who is alone in a laundry room.

7. USE THE BUDDY SYSTEM! If you are not able to stop yourself from assaulting people, ask a friend to stay with you while you are in public.

8. Always be honest with people! Don’t pretend to be a caring friend in order to gain the trust of someone you want to assault. Consider telling them you plan to assault them. If you don’t communicate your intentions, the other person may take that as a sign that you do not plan to rape them.

9. Don’t forget: you can’t have sex with someone unless they are awake!

10. Carry a whistle! If you are worried you might assault someone “on accident” you can hand it to the person you are with, so they can blow it if you do.

quick thought

Love yourself for you. Just make sure you know yourself first.

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quotetastic pictures

I really love the ones from my favorite Christmas movie that I have yet to see this year!

favorite Christmas song :)

It's Christmas!

Merry Love Day. ♥

I love this time of year. Sometimes holidays are hard and stressful but at the end of the day, it's all about love and understanding that it's there. When you don't have money or all the other fancy things in the Christmas commercials, you can count on love. It might sound crazy but it's the only thing that is always there. Love is always on your side. Look at the bigger picture.

There are a lot of love stories on right now. My mom and I had to choose between Titanic, Pride & Prejudice, and Vicki Christina Barcelona. We chose Titanic♥. Right now, Jack and Rose are flying and making out into the horizon and it is warming my heart in so many ways. I love this movie! It's so beautiful. Later on I'll probably watch Pride & Prejudice or maybe I'll be lucky enough to catch the Blind Side on TV again. I began watching it last night and started crying before it was 15 minutes in. I love my sappy movies! It feels good to let some tears out!

Merry Love Day, I hope it was wonderful for you.

It's not as bad as it seems.

The stars were amazing last night. I can normally see the stars outside of my house but last night, it was absolutely phenomenal! It was very relaxing. I've been worrying about so many things lately and I even hit rock bottom a few days ago. It was really bad. I didn't know if I was going to be able to come all the way back and stay there for a healthy amount of time.

So far, I think I'm doing well and I really have my mommy to thank for that. When she calms me down and saves me from my downfall of the moment, it really lasts for a while. Then I saw the stars. I saw how bright they were and how it almost looked magical. I really love magic. I was in complete awe. It was so beautiful! I hope it's an image that stays because it makes my heart happy. I should be happy for Christmas and I'm excited about it. Santa Claus is coming to town but love is already here and it isn't going anywhere.

happy song

The Family Stone

It's the most wonderful time of the year! My favorite Christmas movies are on and I love it! I haven't seen my absolute favorite yet but I'm waiting. My number two favorite is The Family Stone. Luke Wilson :) Brightened my day. I'm not doing much since the semester is over so watching movies has taken up a lot of my time.

I love this movie because their family is just so cute and although they had their dysfunctional moments, there was so much love between them! And I really enjoy seeing so much of Luke Wilson. That's always nice.

Sex, Stereotypes and Beauty: The ABCs and Ds of Commercial Images of Women - Flash Presentation

Click this! It's very informative and thought provoking. I've seen a lot of these pictures before in my Human Sexual Behavior class so that means that the messages and images are spreading. Keep it going!

Sex, Stereotypes and Beauty: The ABCs and Ds of Commercial Images of Women - Flash Presentation

breathe easy

Whoa. I think that sums up my Fall semester. I thought it was going to kill me but look at me. I'm here. I survived chemistry and I did better than I thought. My final grade was a "B" which is what I was fighting for so I'm really happy about it. I had a B+ before the final exam but apparently, a B+ just was not meant to be. I'm okay with that. That class was pretty hard. Thank God for the grading scale!

While up super late studying for my Female Experience in America class, I found this wonderful line in one of the books that I found very interesting:

"...girls who hate their bodies do not make good decisions about partners, or about the kind of sexual activity that is in their best interest. Because they want to be wanted so much, they are susceptible to manipulation, to flattery, even to abuse. It [body angst] makes the worst forms of sexual flattery acceptable, which explains why some girls feel ambivalent about sexual harassment and do not know how to respond."

-Joan Jacobs Brumberg's The Body Project

This is so true! Body hate is our biggest enemy and it is hurting us physically and mentally. Why do we do it so often. I do it too sometimes but it makes me sick when I hear people go on and on about how much they hate their bodies, failing to find a single good thing about it.

I admit that I do need to treat my body a lot better but there are still things that I love about it.

My body is the only one I'll ever have.

I need to listen to it a lot more and understand it when it is trying to tell me something.

My body has been with me since day 1, it's always with me which is why I should probably begin to be a better friend to it.

I love my smile because it is my connection to the past.

I love my eyes because I share them with my beautiful family. Beautiful big tired eyes :)

I love my short fingers because how else would I be able to wear all the cute little rings that I love

I love my mind, most of the time, because it's pretty darn powerful....blessing and a curse.

I think I could on especially after I start to listen to my body more and treat it better.

Body love is possible. I can do it and I thought it was going to be hard...like Chemistry, but I survived.

it's time to smile

Vagina Monologues