Happy Sounds!

Sometimes you hear a song that just makes your heart happy. The voices are beautiful. The words are perfect and you just can't get enough. Perhaps today you need a song to pick you up or some beautiful voices and soothe you; this is the song for you! Right now it's on my study/paper writing playlist and it really motivates me to relax and focus. You're going to love this song. Just Press Play! :)

Important things

Last week was suicide prevention week and the anniversary of 9/11. Because of these two events, there was a lot of love and emotions being spread. Nobody wants to lose the people they love. It's times like this when I really remember that people everywhere are struggling with things. You truly do not know what people are doing to stay alive. It's times like this when I want to tell people that I'm glad that they are here. If you're reading this, I want to let you know that I'm so happy that you're alive. 

People who were raising awareness of Suicide Prevention Week wrote the word "love" on their arms to show their support. This receives the same criticism each year. Some people think that having the word love on your arm really isn't going to do anything but I beg to differ. When I was walking around campus and I saw other people who had written the word "love" on their arm it reminded me that I wasn't alone. It also helped me meet new people because I definitely wanted to say hello to the people with love on their arms and make sure that they knew that they were awesome. Love works.  Love is louder.

Check out this amazing website if you need a smile or a hug today. It's filled with love. http://thenicestplaceontheinter.net/

First Day: Fall 2012 :)

I had a great first day of classes. It was a good day. I like good days. I got to see tons of beautiful faces today. Hugs and smiles all over the place which is almost as essential as water to me. My partner in crime for the day was the lovely Mia and we had tons of fun!!! I also saw Becky who is also awesome AND I got the cutest little bottle of hand sanitizer from her office.

Mia and I went to the LGBT Ice cream social and had fun and joined organizations and got free condoms, candy, pens, and buttons which are all essential to my college career! I now have a planned parenthood button for everyday of the week.

I also went to class which is important. I only had one class today, Gender and Society with one of my favorite professors so I think that I'm really going to enjoy this semester with her. I think this half of junior year will be okay. Today was a happy day.

I hope you had a great day and a happy tomorrow! :) ♥♥♥

Family First

I love this movie Click although I hesitate to watch it because I end up crying my eyes out. However, I decided to watch it tonight and, of course, I couldn't stop crying for like 20 minutes. I won't spoil the movie and say what exactly happens but this part of the movie is so sad because he realizes too late how important it is to stay close with the people you love. In this case, it's family but for other people, the situation might be different. No matter what your situation is, it is so important to remember to love the people closest to you. Things may be crazy but you stick with the people you love. To me, love means that someone is there for you and when things are crazy, those are people I think you would want around.

Semester Over

Now it's time to relax. This past semester was really hard for me and because I was struggling with so many things, I felt like a total failure. Of course now when the semester is over, I look back and realized that, "Hey, I'm not crazy, I survived this shit." I really wasn't sure I was going to make it out of there okay but I guess I did.

I'm still in a place where I'm punishing myself with lack of sleep or sleeping through the days and losing valuable time when the kids are at school and I can actually get work done but I'm working on it. It's a lot better than the things I was punishing myself for during the semester. I had a lot of moments last semester where I blamed myself for a lot of things that I had or have no control over and that was wrong. That isn't healthy at all. I need to learn to stop blaming myself for these things. The thing is, I only begin to blame and punish myself during the most stressful parts of the semester which for last semester was from spring break until the day I moved out of my residence hall.

My summer courses begin this week so I'm going to take that opportunity to balance my self-care with my school work. This past spring, self-care and school work just crashed and everything went downhill. It's so important to take care of yourself. I had to have on of my dear professors remind me of this a few weeks ago. Work is important and reaching your goals is important but you can't make it if you're not taking care of yourself. I know that everyone is different but I think that you should take some time out from working your ass off and spend maybe an hour or so doing something just for you. It could be something spiritual, crafty, sporty, whatever your heart desires that just relaxes you and keeps you from going crazy. Sometimes you need to open up and let it all out in addition to doing something that relaxes you. I'm working on this and hopefully, I will take my own advice in upcoming semesters. I'd like to avoid another downward spiral just because I decided not to take care of myself in the way that I should have.


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Last Week of the Semester!

5 Motivational Quotes To Remind You To Keep Going.

• "Storms make oaks take roots." 

• "The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible."

• "A ship in a harbor is safe but that's not what ships are built for."

•  "Believe with all your heart that you will do what you were made to do." 

• "The surest way not to fail is to determine to succeed."

Stress

Hi. I know I could post a lot more.

I've been really stressed lately. I recently cut out one of the things that usually keep me sane so that I could better focus on my work. I didn't realize that it was keeping my sane so obviously now, I'm kind of losing it a lot and it took me a while to realize why.

I'm staying strong though. There's only a few weeks left of this semester and I know I can make it through. I'm not giving up. I know how hard things can get. I know that I will survive. I can't feel invisible forever.

We can't feel invisible forever. We're strong. We're going to make it. Things will get better.

Talk to someone. I can't stress the importance of telling someone who listens and values you about what's troubling you. Even if you just have to write it down. One of the things I find most frustrating is feeling like no one is listening to you or no one is there for you. It makes you feel like you're not important. The truth is, you are very important. You matter so much. Sometimes people are so wrapped up in their own stress that they can't see beyond that and that doesn't necessarily reflect upon their feelings toward you. You're not invisible at all.

If you're feeling stressed from all the things that life is throwing at you right now, take a break, take a deep breath and do something JUST FOR YOU for an hour. Make sure you're taking care of YOU because you're important.

1 year of hope

This past Tuesday, on the 20th, was my one year anniversary of the last time I cut myself. I'm proud to say that I've been free of self-injury for one year and my heart has been healing quite wonderfully. I'm so happy to have made it this far.

If this is something you're struggling with, and you're looking for a way out, I want you to know that it's possible. All things are possible. You're going to make it. I believe in you and I believe in me and we're going to climb mountains together. I'll help you through your struggles. I'm always here with a listening ear.

You have the power to make it through this. It might not be all better today but it's okay if things take time.

This past year, I've learned to see the incredible strength that's inside of me. I've learned that inspiration is everywhere. There isn't a place that I venture into that I don't find some source of inspiration. I loved myself before I stopped for good and I love myself even more now. I'm incredibly proud of myself. I've never felt so wonderful before.

I shared my day with friends that I love and I had blast! It was excellent! Thank you for listening to my story. Remember to try to be happy. You are beautiful and you are loved!

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inspiration

Some days....

Some days are harder than others. I woke up a few days ago not feeling too tough and I felt like I lost a little sanity. Some days are harder than others. Some days you win and some days you try your best and you don't end up with the results you hoped for. It's important to know that this is not a reason to give up hope. Some things take time. The universe will unfold in the way it's supposed to. If it's going to happen it will. Worrying won't make things happen faster. It doesn't get you anywhere, it's like rocking in a rocking chair.

For days like this, take a deep breath, relax and remember how special and important you are. Remember that when you believe in yourself, there is no way that you can lose. Take a break from worrying and write down a list of things that make you smile or that make you happy. Maybe you can list of your goals and aspirations. Maybe you can list all the things that inspire you. We all need inspiration and with a list of things that inspire you, you'll always be able to find some.

Smile, Beautiful,