another year appraches

My birthday is coming up again. I remember last time at this year. I was so upset and derpressed. Senior year was coming up and I wasn't as comfortable with my body. I was in this constant struggle with myself. Trying to love myself and accept all the things that I didn't like. This problem with being uncomfortable with myself and my body was just ruining my days for me and my summer! It's so hard to have a good time doing anything when you're so focused on how you look at every angle and what people are thinking. It sucks all the life out of you. It took a lot for me to stop doing that but it still happens sometimes. It happens to most people but I try my hardest not to let it really affect me anymore. I can't let it ruin my life anymore. I'm a college girl now, I have a lot to worry about. I'm on my doctor path and I'm on my way to becoming the person that I've always aspired to be. I feel like I'm so close so I can't have all these body image issues holding me back. I think I'm doinw well. I'm going to make it.

songs I love

These are all songs are songs that I love that mean a lot to me. I love the lyrics and I can just listen to them when my heart needs to smile or when my mind is going crazy and I just need to relaaaaxxxx.

From a wonderful woman...

AIN'T I A WOMAN?

by Sojourner Truth


Delivered 1851 at the Women's Convention in Akron, Ohio


"Well, children, where there is so much racket there must be something out of kilter. I think that 'twixt the negroes of the South and the women at the North, all talking about rights, the white men will be in a fix pretty soon. But what's all this here talking about?
That man over there says that women need to be helped into carriages, and lifted over ditches, and to have the best place everywhere. Nobody ever helps me into carriages, or over mud-puddles, or gives me any best place! And ain't I a woman? Look at me! Look at my arm! I have ploughed and planted, and gathered into barns, and no man could head me! And ain't I a woman? I could work as much and eat as much as a man - when I could get it - and bear the lash as well! And ain't I a woman? I have borne thirteen children, and seen most all sold off to slavery, and when I cried out with my mother's grief, none but Jesus heard me! And ain't I a woman?

Then they talk about this thing in the head; what's this they call it? [member of audience whispers, "intellect"] That's it, honey. What's that got to do with women's rights or negroes' rights? If my cup won't hold but a pint, and yours holds a quart, wouldn't you be mean not to let me have my little half measure full?

Then that little man in black there, he says women can't have as much rights as men, 'cause Christ wasn't a woman! Where did your Christ come from? Where did your Christ come from? From God and a woman! Man had nothing to do with Him.

If the first woman God ever made was strong enough to turn the world upside down all alone, these women together ought to be able to turn it back , and get it right side up again! And now they is asking to do it, the men better let them.

Obliged to you for hearing me, and now old Sojourner ain't got nothing more to say."

in a disney mood :)

your heart is special...

"If God had a refrigerator, your picture would be on it. if He had a wallet, your photo would be in it. He sends you flowers every spring and a sunrise every morning. whenever you want to talk, He'll listen. He can live anywhere in the universe, and He chose your heart."

gotta keep on

Just completed my second week of college. Tons of reading and quizzes and little sleep but it's all working out amazingly. I do sleep really well on the days I don't have classes. I love sleeping in. Even after I do wake up, I like to stay in my bed and text for a while. It's very relaxing. *insert dramatic sigh and stare into space* :)

Right now I'm relaxing while watching the titanic. Awesome movie. It's great to work hard. When you work hard, you see results but it is just as important to take a break and relax. Don't push yourself. It's not healthy at all. So many people work themselves to death, I want to be successful but I'm not planning on making that one of the things I do correctly.

Peace within Kiyanna. It's very important. I like it. it works. I hope you know what creates peace within you. Make it work for you. You know it's working when you can feel your heart smiling.

don't concetrate on your flaws

keep it real :)

we are more than you think

"where would we be if we couldn't dream?"

picture is from a note I made and put in one of the bathrooms of my high school last year. I was really sad when it disappeared. I worked pretty hard on it. I was happy that it was seen though :)

random pictures :)

quote of the day.

"Be a positive mirror for your sister. When she puts herself down, be right there to build her up. Tell her what is beautiful about her."

I found the picture on google images.

I typed in positive image and I chose the first one.

I like it.

Princess :)

By now, I know that life isn't a fairytale but I still like to think of myself as a princess. I think princesses are awesome so I feel special knowing that I'm one too. A princess is a young woman with power and as a young lady, I have a lot of power.

I have the power of love. Love is really powerful. We're loving beings. We're made to love and be loved and having that love in us make us all really powerful. Even though we don't always see the love there, it's there making us stronger. I know a lot of people feel unloved at times or some times all of the time but it's there. It's all around you. you're really not alone. i promise. I really do.

With the power of love. We have the chance to learn. We can accept other cultures and love people for who they are. That's super amazing. We have the power to be open minded and accepting of the world around us. Not everyone uses that power but it's so cool when you do.

Another power that qualifies me for being a princess is the power of hope. I'm all about hope. Hope is believing that what you want can be had. It's believing, it's trusting, it's feeling strongly that something can/will happen. It's really powerful. We have the power to allow hope to come inside our hearts and that's when we start seeing things differently in a more positive light but not unrealistically which is very healthy.

There is also the power of using my own mind. Having opinions and views and sharing them. The power to seek knowledge and go on adventures through reading like my favorite disney princess, Belle. =] People don't always acknowledge the power and importance of knowledge but it really is important. It can take us anywhere and paired with hope, and all the other amazing qualities of a princess, it can help you to become what ever you want to be.

We have to be brave so that we can find the courage to learn about the world around us. To accept new things and to understand them. It takes a lot of courage to step out of your comfort zone but it's possible and with bravery, you can make it happen. I never thought I could do it but it happened and it worked for me.

Princesses are also beautiful and we are all beautiful so that's really the first and easiest qualification.

That's what makes me a princess, strength, love, hope, courage, beauty, bravery, and being myself. Who I am is someone amazing and who you are is someone phenomenal and we make the world a better place just by living in it. We're royalty you know =] ♥