Quarter of a century and counting! I am so grateful to
have made it around the sun, my ruling planet, 25 times. 25 years of beautiful
brown skin, in possession of my grandfather’s eyes, my grandmother’s smile and
loving spirit, and all of my hopes and dreams. I’m so happy to still be here.
I’m still here…still breathing, still learning, still loving, still smiling—sometimes
too much but that’s okay—still crying, like all the time and that’s okay too.
These eyes and smile that I love so much are not just for show. They often tell
my secrets and display my emotions. I’m happy to still be here and able to
learn, everyday, more about my emotions and to listen to what my emotions are
telling me. So emotions and all, I’m welcoming this new year and am prepared
for the blessings and lessons that are in store for me.
I acknowledge and celebrate the accomplishments I’ve made
over the past year, like earning my Masters and recommitting to while also
being consistent with how I love and take care of myself. The past year also
taught me a lot and lessons, some painful and some funny, have been useful. I
learned more over the past year about loss, letting go, healing and recovery. In
this new year I’m continuing to welcome lessons, continued growth, and
unapologetic self-love.
I’m on a mission to become more in harmony with my spirit. For
me, this looks like learning more about my emotions and paying attention to
them. Becoming more in harmony with my spirit has been calling for me to be
more mindful and pay attention to what’s coming up in my life. I’m focusing
more on connecting with the universe and with my higher self. I am paying
attention. I’m listening. I’m listening to the universe, to my body, and to my
mind. I feel like this new year calls for being mindful, living in the moment,
and being grateful. I’m getting better at the way I practice gratitude. I need
to be more consistent in my practice of gratitude. When I do practice
gratitude, I tend to feel more at peace and I honestly feel softer and more
open. I’d like to feel that more often.
This year I am nicer to myself. I believe in myself. I love myself and others. I am open and listening. I welcome new challenges. My heart is filled with love and understanding. I am deserving. I am soft. I am strong. I am loving. I am grateful. I am complicated and complex. I am enough and I deserve to be here.
“A woman in harmony with her spirit is like a river flowing. She goes where she will without pretense and arrives at her destination to be prepared to be herself and only herself.”
-Maya Angelou