Family First

I love this movie Click although I hesitate to watch it because I end up crying my eyes out. However, I decided to watch it tonight and, of course, I couldn't stop crying for like 20 minutes. I won't spoil the movie and say what exactly happens but this part of the movie is so sad because he realizes too late how important it is to stay close with the people you love. In this case, it's family but for other people, the situation might be different. No matter what your situation is, it is so important to remember to love the people closest to you. Things may be crazy but you stick with the people you love. To me, love means that someone is there for you and when things are crazy, those are people I think you would want around.

Semester Over

Now it's time to relax. This past semester was really hard for me and because I was struggling with so many things, I felt like a total failure. Of course now when the semester is over, I look back and realized that, "Hey, I'm not crazy, I survived this shit." I really wasn't sure I was going to make it out of there okay but I guess I did.

I'm still in a place where I'm punishing myself with lack of sleep or sleeping through the days and losing valuable time when the kids are at school and I can actually get work done but I'm working on it. It's a lot better than the things I was punishing myself for during the semester. I had a lot of moments last semester where I blamed myself for a lot of things that I had or have no control over and that was wrong. That isn't healthy at all. I need to learn to stop blaming myself for these things. The thing is, I only begin to blame and punish myself during the most stressful parts of the semester which for last semester was from spring break until the day I moved out of my residence hall.

My summer courses begin this week so I'm going to take that opportunity to balance my self-care with my school work. This past spring, self-care and school work just crashed and everything went downhill. It's so important to take care of yourself. I had to have on of my dear professors remind me of this a few weeks ago. Work is important and reaching your goals is important but you can't make it if you're not taking care of yourself. I know that everyone is different but I think that you should take some time out from working your ass off and spend maybe an hour or so doing something just for you. It could be something spiritual, crafty, sporty, whatever your heart desires that just relaxes you and keeps you from going crazy. Sometimes you need to open up and let it all out in addition to doing something that relaxes you. I'm working on this and hopefully, I will take my own advice in upcoming semesters. I'd like to avoid another downward spiral just because I decided not to take care of myself in the way that I should have.


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