1 year of hope

This past Tuesday, on the 20th, was my one year anniversary of the last time I cut myself. I'm proud to say that I've been free of self-injury for one year and my heart has been healing quite wonderfully. I'm so happy to have made it this far.

If this is something you're struggling with, and you're looking for a way out, I want you to know that it's possible. All things are possible. You're going to make it. I believe in you and I believe in me and we're going to climb mountains together. I'll help you through your struggles. I'm always here with a listening ear.

You have the power to make it through this. It might not be all better today but it's okay if things take time.

This past year, I've learned to see the incredible strength that's inside of me. I've learned that inspiration is everywhere. There isn't a place that I venture into that I don't find some source of inspiration. I loved myself before I stopped for good and I love myself even more now. I'm incredibly proud of myself. I've never felt so wonderful before.

I shared my day with friends that I love and I had blast! It was excellent! Thank you for listening to my story. Remember to try to be happy. You are beautiful and you are loved!

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Goodnight January!

Where did this month go? I hope you've all had a great start to this year. I've been settling in slowly but surely. I'm just getting into the grind of things. I think it may be another great semester. All of my classes are interesting.
Outside of class, I think I had a great month too. I did a lot of community service this month. I also spent a lot of time with friends. It's been mostly smiles and a happy heart so I call this month a success!

Long Days...

After a long but great day of volunteering, I just need to relax. So I think I'll just rest my feet, drink some tea, and listen to a few beautiful songs. Like this one:

Goodnight Wish

Remember

Love is louder than societal pressures. You are beautiful and nothing can change that.

Happy Friday

Sunflowers are my favorite. Well, it's a race between sunflowers and tulips but at the moment sunflowers are winning.

People always say how beautiful flowers are when they bloom. People rarely pay attention to flowers as they're growing and blooming but really, the whole process is beautiful. They're beautiful from the moment their seed is planted in the ground and they never stop being beautiful. The same goes for you. You've always been beautiful and you will always be beautiful. Remember that.

Day 4 of 366

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You are enough.
I hope your year is getting off to a good start.
Don't forget to love yourself because you are the best person you know. No one can know or love you like you do.
I hope you smiled today.

Last Day of the Year

I missed a few days because of vacation. It's the last day of the year now. I hope you've had a wonderful year. If you're reading this right now, remember that you've made it and you're beautiful.

I have wishes for you.

• I wish you a happy new year


• I wish that you remember that you're beautiful


• I wish you strength to make it through any obstacles that may come your way


• I wish that you remember to love yourself and your body.


• I wish you good health


• I wish that your mind stay free from thoughts of suicide, self-injury, and anything else that will harm your body.


• I wish you happiness and positivity


• I wish that the world can see your beautiful smile.


• I wish your life be free of body shaming, body hate, self hate, and just hate in general


• I wish you remember that you're bigger than what you're going through

You will make it. Keep your head up and stay beautiful.

Holiday Hangover?

I hope you're holidays are going well!
Stay strong!

Happy Holidays!

Twas the night before Christmas and Kiyanna was blogging
Everyone was awake and the house was quite noisy
I read books to the young ones
They lost interest quickly
Now I am sleepy
I'm also not a poet

-Kiyanna Shanay

I have something more important to tell you than that "poem."

Busy bee missed a post :(

I was so busy last night that I couldn't post so I hope this makes up for it. You are beautiful.

You're not alone

Where did the weekend go? I've been spending so much time looking at older posts and I saw and older one about hope. I want to do more like those. What gives you hope or what does hope look like to you?

Saturday Night.

Hello,
I'm in the middle of reading an amazing book1 I didn't want to get up because I couldn't tear myself away. Luckily Jimmy Fallon is on SNL and I couldn't miss that so I'm taking a little break from my book. I was just crying a little bit while reading which is pretty ironic since the question for my book challenge today was "Name a book that has made you cry." I named four.

I love reading! If you know any good titles, please send them my way!

I love you and you are beautiful.

Friday

It's Friday. We made it through the week. I hope you had a beautiful week.

I've had an interesting week. Interesting in a good way. I've been trying to send as much love to people as possible. I see some one who I used to be in a lot of the people I talk to. I know that it gets better and I hope that they see it too.

I want you to know that your life matters. Hold on to hope because hope is real. Better days are coming and you deserve the love that's out there for you.

Have a beautiful weekend.

love love love

Currently sending people all the love I can. Need some love?

You are worth so much. You're not worthless, you never were, and you never will be. Sometimes things are hard but they'll make you stronger and you'll get past it. You're going to make it. Remember that you're special and you always will be. Someone sees the light shine in you like no one else can. Someone believes in you always and loves you unconditionally.

smile.

I had a good day. I hope you did too.
I was looking back at older posts and I want to share some things.
Flashback of hope

hey

Sending you all the love I can.
I hope you had a great day.
:)

Eliminate ALL the Hate!!!

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment."

-Ralph Waldo Emerson

I see people take two steps forward and then 4 steps back. It confuses me so much. I see so many people who begin to fight for equality and then in the middle of it all, they take time out to push people down. I really don't see how you can promote equality and hate at the same time.


If you've been the victim of hate because you were being yourself, I want you to know that there is nothing wrong with being you. I know I say it all the time but it's true. "There is nothing more badass than being who you are." Shame on them for trying to bring you down. Maybe they're still learning how to spread the love. Sometimes it can be hard to spread love before you begin to live life with an open mind so if you receive hate for your race, sexuality, gender, class, or anything else, just know that it's not your fault. It's never your fault so please don't let it get to you. Hopefully one day they will actually learn how to spread the love with open minds and full acceptance of other people in the world.






To the people who are spreading the hate, why do you do it? I've always wondered why anyone would want to put others down and I just can't seem to figure it out. I've been a victim to this before and obviously it's not a good feeling. I know I can't tell you how to live your life but I want you to know that words can hurt and it isn't fair to bully or send hate to someone for who they are. I hope you have a lot of love in your life and that you have a beautiful week. Spread love to all.

feelings.

I found this in a magical place and I thought that it would most definitely fit here. I know that we've all had our struggles and some of us are still struggling. Our struggles make us stronger. They make us stronger. They give us stories. What ever you are struggling through right now, I want you to know that you are strong. You'll make it through and you'll gain from it. You'll gain strength and knowledge. Know that you're bigger than what you're facing and you can tackle it.