My year in 2011

I feel like this has been a really good year for me. This year, I've learned to love myself in a way I never have before. I've never been happier. I've never loved myself more. I've learned that acceptance is just what I needed to find love and happiness in my life.

I've definitely had some battles to get through and I think I've survived quite nicely. I think my heart is healing quite wonderfully.

My year started off a little rocky but it's made me stronger.

• My spring semester didn't go to well but I survived


• I started cutting again earlier this year


• I got into a few fights and had some hurdles in a few relationships


• I had a few family problems that were hard to get through

I survived and I'm stronger because I know that these situations don't hold me back from happiness now. Life goes on. This year, especially from summer up until now, I've really learned a lot about myself. I have begun the process of finding and loving myself. It's taken a long time to love me but I now know for sure that I love me some me. Happy points this year:

• I stopped cutting some time in mid-April. I don't see my self going down that road again anytime soon.


• I made some great new friendships


• My Fall 2011 semester went quite well


• I got to go home to NYC this holiday season.


• I got to see some people who I hadn't seen in years and it was wonderful!


• I met a lot of great people this year and I'm thankful for them


• I've stumbled on a lot of great inspiration this year and I think it's what really kept me strong at times when I needed it.


• I'm a junior now and that's really exciting
li>I accepted myself and my body

There have been more but it's hard to put everything into words and on to lists. I'm looking forward to what the new year has to bring. I'll learn and grow from what ever life throws my way. It's nice to reflect. I hope you've had a great year. Be safe. Here's to surviving 2012!!

Last Day of the Year

I missed a few days because of vacation. It's the last day of the year now. I hope you've had a wonderful year. If you're reading this right now, remember that you've made it and you're beautiful.

I have wishes for you.

• I wish you a happy new year


• I wish that you remember that you're beautiful


• I wish you strength to make it through any obstacles that may come your way


• I wish that you remember to love yourself and your body.


• I wish you good health


• I wish that your mind stay free from thoughts of suicide, self-injury, and anything else that will harm your body.


• I wish you happiness and positivity


• I wish that the world can see your beautiful smile.


• I wish your life be free of body shaming, body hate, self hate, and just hate in general


• I wish you remember that you're bigger than what you're going through

You will make it. Keep your head up and stay beautiful.

2010 :)

2009 is gone and 2010 is finally here. I wish everyone the best this year and I hope that your holiday season was wonderful.

With 2009 being over, I'd like to say that it was a very good year for me. I changed a lot and I learned a lot also. I've met some awesome people from all over the world who have inspired me to travel, I'm currently trying to convince my mom to let me go to Egypt this year. It's really been a lot of fun. I've seen cool organizations start and do big things like operation beautiful, project beauty, every girl is beautiful in their own way, a mended heart, holding of wrist, etc. I love to see people trying to help others and I know that I'll see a lot more of it in 2010. Last year I did somethings that I hope stay in 2009. Like cutting, eating my emotions, letting people bring me down, etc.. I'm not taking any of that into thise new year. New Year, new attitude. :)

This year there are some things that I'm certain I want to do,

1. I want to make a million smiles :) I'm going to start out on twitter and posting notes around my school. follow the twitter please http://www.twitter.com/happy_hearts. I really want to give people a reason to wake up and smile. To know that happiness is worth it. I want people to smile because their heart is happy.
2. I want to learn two languages. Arabic and Spanish.
3. Graduate and start college!!! :)
4. I need to be more organized and study more!

I really feel like this year will be a great one. I hope that there is a lot more love in the world this year. I have big plans and I know that many other people do too and I wish everyone the best. I'm thankful to everyone I met in 2009, on twitter and facebook, I also want to thank everyone who has ever read my blog. You all have been great contributions to my life and I love you for that. Let's throw a party one day. I'll bring the love, you bring the peace and happiness. Love you. Happy New Year :)

Hello 2010. Bring it.