Friday

It's Friday. We made it through the week. I hope you had a beautiful week.

I've had an interesting week. Interesting in a good way. I've been trying to send as much love to people as possible. I see some one who I used to be in a lot of the people I talk to. I know that it gets better and I hope that they see it too.

I want you to know that your life matters. Hold on to hope because hope is real. Better days are coming and you deserve the love that's out there for you.

Have a beautiful weekend.

Saturday night and everything's fine

You are okay and the world is a beautiful place....if you care to see it that way. Open your eyes and see the beauty of the world around you. Enjoy life. It's wonderful. I love you.

Reasons to smile: November 29, 2011

These are reasons to smile today:

• I had two exams today and I think I did well on both of them
• I got some excellent feedback on a paper I wrote about the Zero Tolerance Bullying Policy in schools. I love writing about something I'm passionate about and I would really love to see an end to bullying. We all know how damaging its effects are.
  
• I've fallen in love with a new inspirational song. It's "Perfect" by the powerhouse of inspiration and empowerment that is Pink! Today Kurt and Blaine covered it on glee and it was amazing. I loved it. I find Darren Criss (Blaine) to be a great source of inspiration to me so I just loved hearing him sing it. I listened to that song about 10 times this morning when I should have been studying. It's great!
• I need to mention again that I'm halfway through with exams!
• I met some amazing people today
• I have amazing people in my life
• I had a great study break today and I got to catch up with some people I haven't spent time with in a while.
• It was a pretty good day.

Remember how beautiful and amazing you are.

Sorry I'm late.

You deserve to be here. You are wonderful. You are stronger than what you're going through. Stay strong.

You are not alone.

Recently in the news, the story broke of a 10 year old girl who committed suicide by hanging herself in her closet. She was only 10 years old and an honor student. Now she's gone. Like many others, she was bullied in school and it led her to take her own life. She felt alone, left out, and saw no other way out

Now listen to me, I want you to remember that you are not alone. Love is louder than the harsh things they say. Love is louder than hate, prejudice, ignorance, intolerance, and judgement. I'm so sorry for all the voices that are not heard but I will be standing up for you. This needs to stop. We need to stop losing lives like this. Stomp Out Bullying...it is not necessary and it's destroying us. Bullies: STOP IT.

We're stronger than bullying and we need to protect each other and ourselves. Remember please that you are a beautiful person. You are loved. You will make it. I believe in you.

Remember this quote, it's one of my favorites right now, "You are a child of the universe! No less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here."

You are not alone. Listen to the song below. It's one of my favorites. I can listen to it a million times. Remember that you're not alone. Love is louder.

You are Beautiful♥

This song has always been one of my favorite. I love it because it makes my heart happy. I like the message that it's sending. Be yourself and love yourself. You are a queen. You're strong. You're beautiful and amazing. I made this video for you. In honor of all the strong and beautiful women in this world. I hope you enjoy it.

love is louder

End bullying. There is no excuse to hurt people or to push them to the edge of death with endless taunting, jeers, or rude and demeaning remarks. It's not fair. This cycle that is ending countless, precious lives needs to stop! How many tears must flow, lives lost, blood shed, before the world sees that action needs to be taken? How long before society sees that love is louder than hate. Love is louder than pain. There is never an excuse to hurt people. I'll never understand why anyone thinks it's okay It blows my mind when ever I think about it but I know that's there will be a day when this horrible cycle ends and love can be heard through all the confusion and pain. We have to take baby steps but there is no doubt that if we work together and work on the love, we can it "Don't give up on love, just hold on."

I saved me.

When I was sad, no one noticed. When I cried no one noticed. So I just pretended to be happy when I was strong enough even if that meant I had to go the bathroom and cry or go home and lock myself in my room until I felt better, not caring about the measures I took to make that happen. Now I just don't know where pretend happiness ends and real happiness starts or where pretend happiness starts and real happiness ends.

I'm still depressed sometimes for long periods, not as long as I was before but still unaware of what brought it on. When it was really bad and I was dealing with it in all the wrong ways I realized that it probably wouldn't make a difference if I just acted happy and "normal" even though I was screaming and crying on the inside. People didn't notice that I was sad so why put on a show for them. I was just being ignored even while I was crying in my classes so why not just act like a happy little bee and that way at least, I'd be noticed. It was so tiring though. At the end of the day I had to come home and cry or cut or just eat until I couldn't think about the rest of the world anymore even though I knew that the next day, it would be the same process and the same struggle to keep my pain inside and still remain happy on the outside because honestly, after a while, I figured that my pain, my sadness, my tears, and the screams that I was holding inside of me were no one else's buisness. In my mind these people that ignored my tears and ignored my obvious sadness when it was still there couldn't help me in anyway. They couldn't even notice that there was something wrong in the beginning. It was just pointless to me so I only let them see the person who I wanted to be. The person who I wish would come and rescue me and that person did rescue me, I think. I'm pretty sure that my happiness is real now and not just an act. I think that this person I became is really me now. This person rescued the sad person and now they live side by side trying to rescue other people who may be struggling and hopefully, the happy hero can just eliminate the sad civilian unless maybe that sad person is necessary for me to realize how far I've come and what I want to save others from. I'm really thankful for this happy person who rescues me who's always there for that sad part of me because I don't like going to the bathroom and crying at school. I didn't like crying in my classes, it just didn't feel right and I'm proud of myself for rescuing me.

this is good

Every day,
I learn to love myself more and more.
I learn to treat myself better each and every
day.
This is good.
I smile more, because I have a reason to, not just
because I can.
I'm happy.
This is good.
My heart is slowly healing and it's good.

All broken hearts need to be healed.
If you're currently suffering from a broken heart, I hope it heals. I hope you find the love that can repair your broken heart. It may be a hard journey but it will be a beautiful one. I'd like to start by saying that I love you.
I love you because I believe in you and I know that you're special and I want the very best for you.

I want to see your heart healed. Let the love heal your heart.

I hope to see you smile!

This week, when I was in bed thinking, I realized that smiles are so beautiful. I think they're taken for granted sometimes. I have never seen a smile that I didn't love. I think sometimes it takes a lot of courage to smile but when we smile, especially in the midst of one of life's storms, it's a truly magical event. It's a shame that some people can't find a reason to smile sometimes. To all of those people, I want you to know that somewhere, someone is thinking about you and how your smile has made their day. Someone loves your smile and wants nothing else but to see it. I'm one person that wants to see you smile.
It only takes 17 muscles to smile and over 40 to frown. Even though it can take a lot of courage to smile sometimes, it's not really that much work!
I hope we can all find a chance to smile. To shine and show the world something really beautiful. Don't be afraid to share it with the world. We all need a beautiful ray of love and hope, all that power packed in one little smile. Let's use that power for greatness.
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