Be Fearless

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I just don't feel like myself anymore. I miss crying. I miss being sad but I love being happy. I love it. I love the confidence that I carry now but sometimes I just think I shouldn't have it, like it doesn't belong to me. I miss all the tears and I miss being in the darkness. I haven't felt like killing myself in what feels like forever but why do I miss that feeling? I should be happy that my smiles are meaningful and that my heart is always happy. Why do I want to be so sad? Why do I crave all the tears? I guess truly, I feel really empty inside now that I'm not as sad all the time. My head is really coudy and I'm just confused about it all. Sometimes, I feel like I need some darkness in my life. Why am I afraid to be so happy?

I want us all to crave happiness and for us to ultimately achieve it. No one should be in the darkenss. Don't be afraid of happiness. Be brave and embrace it. We all need to. I hope that we can all smile meaningful smiles and that our hearts stay happy. I hope that we can all feel better in the light and no longer fear it. I wish we were all fearless and knew how to love ourselves to the point where we could achieve happiness and freedom all the pain. I believe that the sun will one day shine for all of us. I really do.

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I have seen so many people holding back from saying what's really on their mind. I have to honestly say that I don't always speak up either. Why do people tend to hold back sometimes. Our voices are so powerful. We are so powerful. It's a shame that we can't always see that we can have an impact on others. What makes us afraid to try to make a difference? I know for me, it's the fear that no one will appreciate it or the won't understand the point I'm trying to get across. I was planning to post positive messages all over school but I kept rethinking my idea because I wasn't sure how people at my school would react. I thought that I would maybe get into trouble or that people will write negative things on them or take them down. I shouldn't have worries like that in my mind. I shouldn't have to rethink doing a good deed because I'm afraid of what others will do.

That night, I read my devotional book to help with my confusion and the last sentence of the passage of said, "You never know how someone will react to an act of love."

We should not be afraid to share our love and our passion to help others. We should be able to raise our voice without the fear of being hurt in return. We're made to love and be loved. The first step, I would guess is to love and then you will recieve love in return. I'm not an expert on this but hopefully, people who had this problem will overcome it. We all have the power to love and help others. You matter. We all matter and we are all more powerful than we could ever imagine. Let's not be afraid to use it for good.