first day of classes...

First day of college classes went well. That's right, I survived and now I'm 100% sure that I can keep doing this for 4 years! I feel smarter already. My classes are all huge and I thought that was going to bother me but surprisingly, it didn't. I can see myself enjoying them all...maybe not at all moments because of American History but I'm sure I'll enjoy it most of the time. So basically all went well.

I'm living my life for me and right now, I think I'm doing a pretty okay job.
=]

I hope you remember how beautiful you are. People can say all types of things but just know that you are beautiful and you are loved....amazing amounts!

=D

Ready to study :)
first day of classes tomorrow!

goals :)

"It is more important to know where you are going than to get there quickly."

make a goal. stay focused. be amazing. believe. it works. be patient. things will be okay.

elephant, zebra, girraffe.

"In a world where you can be anything....Be Yourself."

At orientation, my team leader told us not to act like something we're not because we will get put in our place. I really liked what she said. I like being myself. I've been doing mini self-esteem activities with myself so that I can increase the Kiyanna love which is important...very important actually. It makes my day brighter and my smile a lot more. That's why I like to keep things that make represent my personality all around me.

I don't have pictures because I don't currently have my computer but I do want to share with you what I have around me that reminds me of how unique I am. because we're all unique and special in our own perfect way.

This is what I keep around me:

• pictures of my family, one in a frame that was given to me as a gift from a wonderful person who I learned a lot from, she gave it to me in the 8th grade.
• animal stickers and lots of zebra print and a cute little zebra who is always looking at me....
• I also have all the colors I love in my dorm room. I love a lot of colors but I didn't go overboard or anything. It's mostly pink, purple, and a teal color. Those are my favorites at the moment.
• I have my devotional books that are amazing. One is called "every teen girl's little pink book" and the other one is called "always sisters." They are both amazing...quote time, from the little pink book..."All the flowers of tomorrow are in the seeds that we sow today."
• I also have my mickey mouse pajamas. They're not on right now but have them and they're amazing :)

That's all for now. Even though I've almost been here a week, I still need lots. I'm a very sleepy zebra and there's one thing I forgot to mention...With my internet, Rupert Grint is just a click a way and he makes my heart happy. instant stress reliever.

first day of college quote :)

"If the elevator to success stops, take the stairs."

If I wasn't ready, then it's too late now. I'm here and there's no turning back. Moving in went well although there are still a few things that I need. Sleep being one of them which is why I have to keep this pretty short. I miss my mom and my home tons and tons but I have a lovely pink cloth to wipe away the tears that come very frequently, *stops typing...wipes...* I think once I go to sleep and wake up and my mind is occupied, then I'll be find. When your mind is quiet, that's when it all goes spiraling into the unknown. which can be okay sometimes because you start having very intelligent thoughts or you can have really stupid thoughts. At least this washcloth is getting some use. I got 10 for a dollar and they're pink. good deal. good color.

I'm about to start a new book called "Three Cups of Tea." It was on my summer book list for AP Language and Composition and I've been wanting to read it since then so, hopefully I can start it tonight before I go off to dream land.

When I was little, my mother used to tell me, that if I couldn't sleep, I should close my eyes and start a dream. I do it all the time still, mostly when I'm bored and have nothing else to do.Tonight I'll make sure I do it and see what I'll dream of. I'm thinking maybe Ice cream with Rupert Grint. That sounds like a wonderful start!

this is a quote that I put on the wall by my bed.

"a DREAM is a wish that the heart makes"

this is how they see it.

"You can't hold a man down without staying down with him."

So now here comes the test.

"Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened."

I love smiling and I feel good when I cry. I laugh and cry at the end of some of my favorite movies. I didn't cry when I graduated, when that cha[ter of my life ended. I do think I'll cry when I start this new chapter. When I move away to school in like a little over 24 hours. It's so exciting, scary, epic, sad, special, meaningful. I think I'm going to smile and cry and maybe laugh. There are too many emotions involved to keep a straight face or act like it's not effecting me.

I know I said I was giving up on what if's but what if I don't have everything I need, what if I transition badly, what if I get lost? I'll be having to look past the what if's because it's happening. I going away to school and it's happening very very soon. All the what if's will be something to learn from. Every experience is a lesson learned.

Stress and nerves, what an awful combination. I'm too busy to watch tv so no Arthur or Golden girls marathons. All I can do is try to find something to make me laugh while I'm cleaning, packing, and getting ready for this big step. Maybe I'll watch Harry Potter, the very first one, when I'm done packing or while I'm packing. That movie always makes me calm. I love to look back at it especially since they all look so young and I remember how amazing I though the movie was the first time I saw it. I was much younger then and things were simple. It's nice to have simple sometimes. Anything to keep the stress from intoxicating me.

Also, Happy Grand Opening of Wizarding World of Harry Potter.

I hope you smile! =] ♥

feeling pretty

What is it about shopping with your best friends that just makes you feel so happy. This is one of the dresses I got today. Even though trying on clothes can be a pain in the neck, I like it because I get to see what things compliment me and what fits my body bests. I'm more comfortable in things that look nice on me. When I'm more comfortable, I feel better about myself. Which is good. It helps me to love myself more. When I'm in clothes and accessories that I really like, I feel more confident and I smile a bit more. So my excuse to go shopping is to boost my self-esteem. I always felt that shopping brought down my self-esteem but it's really a chance to learn more about me and my body. This must make me seem crazy, shopping to learn and boost my self-esteem but I guess I'm just weird like that. I love it!

Also, I know that first picture is super edited but I was really hot and there was sweat everywhere so I edited to make me look less....oily!

Have a super duper day! :)

i love these!